sumhw, i feel like im d moz boring person on earth. perhaps i am.
well, juz hope my mum allows me 2 go out 2moro...dat'll b exciting...fatin wants 2 try out 4 anugerah! i relli hope she gets thru..=) hmms..oh wells, hope i get 2 arrive soon enuff 2 hear her sing..i haf claz ngaji which my mum wun allow me 2 ponteng. esp since i ponteng twice or was it thrice due to me being sick dis past wk. yea. but i wanna go out. hopefully can meet him too. *sighs* plz say yes mum.
ive been sick since saturday..yes..since..which means im still sick now..haix...n i slept thru my saturday n sunday...wat a waste of wkend! wonder wen i'll get well...hopefully soon...real soon...
had a freaking restless nite...woke up several times in de nite..
waiting is agony.
i wonder if dere is a gd explanation...dere better b...*sighs* am i very unreasonable? i feel so these days...
im stupid. i dun tink b4 i act. now, ive made a mistake. n i cant erase it.
my silent hp was driving me crazy. so, i decided to switch it off. probably a gd idea. i dun haf many frenz anw. if i were to count, probably only 3 or 4 dat i contact inc my bf. datz kinda pathetic. actually i kinda feel like dumping my hp in de rubbish bin or slamming it hard against de wall..but obviously, dat cant b done. my dad bought d hp 4 me. i dun haf de right 2 do wat i feel like doing juz bcoz im gg crazy due to dat dangz silence..
silence.
i tink ive had enuff of crying. but sumhw my brain doesnt tink so. i still cry evry now n den like some mad woman. it's a wonder im a teacher.
went out 2day. alone. all alone in de lib. wif de silent hp.
bought his fave choc 2 eat.
my fault. evryting dat happens is my fault. bcoz i dun tink. im such an insensitive brat.
teaching tmr n fri at admiralty pri. i rejected teaching 2day. if nt, dis whole wk i wd haf been teaching.
are romances in books just a fantasy?
dis wk was a wowee wk. had relief teaching for 4 days in a row. n to top it up, yesterday n 2day, i relief not 1 teacher but 2 teachers. tired man running around. but still...
it juz melts ur heart wen de kids cum up 2 u 2 gif u sumting as simple as a drawing..
it makes u feel appreciated wen de kids enjoy ur lesson n dun want u 2 go..
it makes u feel like smiling wen de kids r juz so adorable..
but oh wells...dey can oso b very naughty...=)
i tink sumhw, dis wk was de most fulfilling days i've ever had. n i strongly feel it's got 2 do wif de heart. wen u do sumting sincerely..dat is wen u feel dat sense of satisfaction n happiness. yupz. those r my words of de day. or mayb month. i've hardly been updating. but anw, sch holz r here! time 2 collect new supplies 4 kids' lessons...
