haix...i tink i make myself think too much abt soo many things...i'm feeling so pressured! i so easily breakdown n cry these days...not to mention getting aangry at everyone around me. plus i keep on keeping things within myself tho i knw it's nt gd.

i love organising things but dis is definitely one activity dat i feel like backing out of organising. it's juz too much...i wish i can juz lepaskan de tanggungjawab....but i feel mean to let kak shafa shoulder evrything herself esp since shez taking a levels dis yr too...n to give up de responsibilty to my other clazmates....i'm nt sure who is de best candidate...n almoz evryone's taking o levels dis yr. haishk.

den....well, loadsa of things haf been happening...like, on fri, went 2 study wif khai...managed 2 understand sajak component. now left 5 other components if u count bahasa paper in. den, fri nite...went bowling...ade competition...family-based. i was kinda ok for de 1st game but i totally bombed de 2nd game....so many gutter balls n made me leave de bowling centre in disappointtment. i relli felt so down seh...

den, yesterday, went to perdaus late. haishk, a pinch out of my marks alredi for not coming punctually. i had 2 b late on de 1st day dey start to take note of things. gr8. but anw, met my ustazah n ustaz frm darul furqan. oh, n raiyyan, my ex-clasmate at wisma indah. whoa, he actually rmmbrd me. n he was asking loadsa qns smlm...padahal, dulu kiteorg tak pernah berbual. den, i oso met noorjahan. a wonder she rmmbrd my full name coz we juz took muis psle 2geder but i dun tink we talked 2 each other.

anw...i'm intrested 2 join darul furqan youth club but oh wells...not too sure if im gg 2 de workshop dis wed. seems so intruding amidst my revision. haix.

n i keep on tinking dat u're angry at me. isit juz me?

oh wells....n so many ppl not joing my madrasah claz yahoogrp. esp de guys. it's juz so frustrating to alias evryting. hate everything. eargh!

oh ya, n i'm still having loadsa conflicts wif my ownself. so yea, dat shd complete all dat i'm stressed abt i tink.

prelims is one wk away. wat haf i done?