since laz time till now, i've always been doing constant reflections on myself to find out wat's wrong wif me, wat i shd try 2 change, wat i can improve on n watsoever... n dere r definitely times wen i relli believe dat i'm very insensitive 2 others no matter how sensitive i am. datz kinda contradicting but smehw...i dunno...i guess i'm sensitive not exactly at de rite times? sumtimes..i'm juz 2 caught up in my own problems 2 c dat others r oso having problems...sumtimes, i guess i'm juz selfish...sumtimes, i'm juz stupid n dun realise it...n sumtimes i juz do things without thinking....

i honestly feel so bad wen i realise wat i've done or wat i missed out or wateva....n it hurts me a lot 2 know dat i've been insensitive....i guess i've neva been observant coz it neva seemed 2 matter in my life. all my life i've been stupid no matter how clever i was. i wdnt know hw 2 xplain it properly lah. but i d know dat amidst my cleverness...i can honestly b freaking stupid in things other than academics n i'm honestly, sincerely sorry 2 whomever dat i might've eva hurt in my whole entire life.

now though...it matters...i'm still trying n i'm sorry if i'm not gd at it. sorry.

n i tink i owe my close frens an apology. i'm juz a hypocrite who's selfish. i'm sorry.

sumtimes, i'm juz so tempted 2 slap myself. sumtimes...i juz dun understand y i do things wen i know i make myself feel guilty aft dat. am i juz plain stupid or wat? oh wells...