was reading some of my past entries from my various blogs n it juz reminded me how i've lost myself in dis sch...it's like my identity...wat i used 2 b proud of, wat i used 2 associate myself wif...it's all lost....
sumtimes, i honestly do not know wat 2 think...dere's juz 2 many qns swimming in my head dat r left unanswered....sumtimes...wen i tink of all dis qns...i juz block these qns out of my head coz i juz do not want 2 cum 2 a conclusion. i do not want 2 know d real answer to these qns...
sumtimes, i feel like i've let down myself, let down evryone around me.
sumtimes...i juz dunno wat 2 think.
i juz feel like blocking evryting rite now n juz focus on my studies...but in dat process, ppl will get hurt?
honestly....wat do i want in life? i do know tho dat i hate regrets n i wanna live life without any regrets....
*surrenders* i give up. my brain has juz lost d ability 2 think rationally. n i've juz got loadsa depressing negative words 2 describe myself. y? coz i lack of self-esteem. wateva.