Dere's dis little monster in me raging, begging for it 2 b let out. It's trapped and pounding on all four walls, trying to find its way out, with many shouts and screams being left unheard. The walls are soundproof after all.

*sighs* I'm heartbroken.

N sumhow, i'm starting to hate dislike a lot of people. I'm getting fed-up easily. weirdly enuff tho, i've been rather successful at controlling my anger. like i try not to talk too much wen i know i mite blow up. i try to leave de scene if sum1 is making me angry. or even...sleep like wat i did juz now. i juz cant believe dat i'm actually avoiding people. i juz feel soo...eargh! words juz cant describe how i feel.

March-one wk of no sch-started.

note dat i din say march holidays. y? coz it's not fit 2 b called a holiday. datz y.

now, dis is wat i have to do during dis so called break:-

#go my aunt's house to retrieve my notes
#go universities' open house
#Perdaus
#ngaji claz
#go KL/Kota Tinggi
#TPJC Carnival meeting
#TPJC Carnival demo testing
#Do corrections for all essay + compre assignments(GP)
#Fill in errors checklist(GP)
#25 Simplified reading logs(GP)
#16 reading logs(GP)
#1100 words-do till 35th wk(GP)
#Prepare for Vocab quiz(GP)
#Prepare for current affairs quiz based on nxt wk's news(GP)
#Prepare for presentation on Gulf War 1 & 2(GP)
#Prepare for Chem faculty tez (4 topics)
#Prepare for Physics faculty tez (6 topics)
#Prepare for Maths faculty tez (4 topics)
#Maths holiday Assignment
#Chemistry online quiz
#Learn periodicity(self-study topic-Chem)
#HML tutorial
#Read keluarga gerilya(HML)
#Read SM(HML)
#prepare tutorials for when sch reopens
#study for Chem and Physics SPA
#prepare AC tutorial-Physics(will be presenting one qn in claz)
#complete all overdued maths assignments
#Rest loads
#Go bowling/Watch movie
#CRY

i tink my GP teacher is crazy. i hate her. gif us so much work. as if we dun get work for other subjects. she makes me freaking stressed out! relli, i juz dunno how 2 start.

oh, n i tot i was gonna b facilitator for bengel pidato. however, my name was not on the list. so, wat does dat mean? i so hate it dat evrytime i agree to sumting, in d end i end up not doing coz sumhow sum1 will fill in de job. am i relli dat redundant in mlep? it hurts. seriously. i do feel left out. n now i'm announcing it 2 de world k? coz, i juz dun wanna care anymore. one of de reasons y i dun hang out in mlep rm is juz dat i feel left out wen im dere. like wat's de pt of me being dere? i feel as if i haf no frenz. like juz now, was pengerusi majlis for bahas finals. had a few hours to kill since it started at 4.30. i kept on gg in n out of mlep rm. i so totally din know wattodo. i felt so restless. so in d end, i spent my time at de lib. i dun feel belonged at mlep. so, datz my reason for not participating much in mlep activities.

i tink i'm gonna join dk. coz i miss it. n i need an outlet 2 destress. i feel as if i'm keeping things inside me. haish....i can smile. i can laugh. but at times, i juz cant bear being me. haix...i juz cant xplain my feelings. n i shd go 2 slp now. evryone's aslp.

yea. nitez.