i dunno watsup wif me n tears nowadays...dey happen 2 juz fall freely u know...

i was talking 2 irah over de fon juz now abt plans 4 family day..n after a while...i juz din know wat i was talking abt. i dun tink i made much sense...i wonder wat irah was thinking...*sighs* i'm juz so tired. tired of evrything. tired of constantly making preparations..tho i realise i haven even relli started preparing for anything. debate. a levels. family day. i've not been involved in de planning of family day. i've not met up wif my grp members for debate. i've not been doing my school work. n i badly need to take a break tho de prob is i dono how. i dono how 2 stop n take a break without my mind screamin 'go n study now!!! or go n do ur homework nw!!! or stop being lazy!!! or sumting like dat.' tho i managed 2 actually ignore dat sick feeling of not obeying my mind 2day n not do a single thing relating to sch 2day bsides attempting to read straits times. note attempting.

n 2moro i hafta go 2 my grandma's house 4 family day meeting tho i badly wanna say no coz i wanna go back 2 schwork. not onli go 2 my grandma's house but sleep dere as well. which means saturday n sunday will be gone. not to mention dat dere's gonna b a cousinz' outing moz prob nxt wk plus abbas proposing an ocip outing on monday. i'm juz going nuts at de mention of going out coz dere's onli 2-3 more wks of holz n sch will reopen n i badly need my foundation of maths, physics, chem, hml!!! seriously...my brain keeps on screaming n screaming every single second dat i tink of sch evry single second. how excruciating is dat? i can't even rez properly. cant relax cant do aniting without thinking of my studies.

i'm freaking scared n i'll admit...i am stressed. help me take a breather. plz. oh n stop me from thinking abt sch. do dat n i'll congratulate u.