i relli, relli feel like crying...but i relli, relli dun want to cry. haix. wat's up wif me man...me n my fluctuating mood.

finally...my mum's gonna be back 2moro...i'm still wondering if i shd tell her all dat i'm thinking abt. haix...i seriously, seriously dono who i can talk to anymore. as i was telling fatin earlier, perhaps de problem is juz me. i make things dat may not even b a problem into big problems. yea. *sighs*

sumtimes...dere's soo many things i wd like 2 talk abt here in my blog...but den, i wd rmmbr dat dere may b some ppl reading de blog dat i dun exactly want dem 2 know how i relli, relli feel. n den...even tho i can write down my feelings...but haix...i dunno...i juz dun haf de mood. n hence, everything is kept shut in me.

it's easy for ppl 2 say dey'll b dere 4 me..but how do i tell dem de real problem wen dey themselves may b involved in de problem? i feel so confused n lost. dunno where to turn to. i relli need 2 talk it out...but to who??? perhaps i'm very choosy abt who i wanna spill my probz to..but datz quite natural rite? i mean i can't go around telling de whole world wat de heck is going on in my life...n i guess...sumtimes...i juz dun want de ppl involved 2 feel bad dat dey're actually hurting me in sum way or other...n other times, i juz feel so petty n ultra-sensitive.

u know...i'm like a BIG hypocrite...seriously can't stand myself sumtimes...n dis is seriously an honest entry...haix...n aft reading dis n u feel like u wanna tag, plz dun say dat u're dere 4 me 2 talk 2 or dun worry too much..juz dun try 2 comfort me coz i'm not in de mood for it. u mite juz add 2 de fire...i'm angry. i tink.

boo...it's almoz 12 n i'm not asleep. quite unlike me who sleeps early. hmms..i'm feeling dizzy alredi. oh wells. thrash me n my life. nite2 world.