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new blog ready

2010-01-04T10:43:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum!

Hey whoever who is still reading my blog! haha...i tink no one bothers alredi...but anw, if u r reading dis, den u r here...n so, to let u knw dat I've set up a new blog in light of de new year...to start afresh..insya-Allah...

So, let me welcome u to my new blog!

Slamatz...

new layout..

2009-12-27T13:36:00.002+08:00

this is wat u get 4 not checking ur blog anymore...haix..din even realised dat my blog is condemned n no one could read it...ohwells...

Anw, im timking of moving 2 a new blog...ingin membuka lembaran baru..but i still want dis blog to be readable coz it contains many of my memories...things dat i still wana hold on too..hence, de new layout...but anw, im still trying 2 get a suitable layout 4 my new blog..cant seem to find any...

kla, once my new blog is ready, i'll announce it..=)

dapur!!!

2009-06-12T12:46:00.003+08:00

hahaha....i spent de whole morning in de kitchen! is dat cool or wat?

2day, my parents' anniversary...so, i juz tot of doing a lil sumting 4 dem...so, pagi2 lagi da mandi, n siap...den i went shop 4 de ingredients dat i need...actually, i din relli cook..heh...i made sandwich with cheese filling n tomatoes n cucumbers...oh, ya, n i tried 2 arrange it into a heart...yummy yummy! my mum finished her platealmoz immediately! n she say she felt like she ate at a restaurant! sweet rite? heh..sh sed, de taste of my sandwich reminded her of de sandwich dat my aunt used 2 blanje her (weneva my aunt got her gaji) at some coffeehouse...yea...

den, after dat, i made supreme baked potatoes...gosh...i wish i bought more potatoes! well, i tot i could use de ones at home...bought onli 4 in case of aniting...yea, n apparently, de potatoes at hme semue dah tak leh pakai...so, had 2 make do with de 4 dat i bought...n it totally turned out well! yummy yummy! wished i put in more cheese though..

anw, wateva itis, it totally is an achievement 4 me coz i dun like 2 cook. dis is at least a gd step..i totally did evryting on my own! hooray 4 recipe bks! haha...

-

2009-04-13T08:39:00.000+08:00

sepi...
tanpamu di sisi...
terasa kekosongan di hati...

updates..

2009-04-02T13:35:00.002+08:00

first movie of the year=dragonball evolution

sadly, i wasnt even intrested 2 watch it..heh...but twas ok...

hmm...exams r suddenly here again...time passes by like a whirlwind...n i've been such a lazybum dis yr...din even bother 2 update my blog..

oh wells...anw, 2day haf klaz ngaji by ustaz batisah, taufik batisah's dad..woo hoo~ haha..de 2nd claz of de yr..n we found out laz wk dat taufik's in england..*shrugz*

ok, anw, i gtg print notes now..toodles!

fairytales..

2009-01-10T19:48:00.002+08:00

my feet hurt...i tink it's from too much walking plus bad shoes...

anw, while i was walking back juz nw...i was tinking of how nice it's like if reality was like a novel or movies...wen de girl's feet r hurt, de prince charmin/boyfren will carry her back to the house...

n den, wen i tried to put dat into reality...i juz cudnt imagine sumting liddat relli happening...

ohwells...

fantasizing juz dun get u anywer...

results

2008-12-14T20:13:00.002+08:00

*wails* MY RESULTS IS SUPER RABAK!!!! much, much worse than laz yr sem 1 even...n DAT was alredi BAD ENOUGH!!! AAAARRRGGGHHH!!!

ok, im sori...i juz need 2 SCREAM!!!

haix....i brought it upon myself i know...i juz cant blif it cud b dat bad...

ok...calm down....byee..

holiday plans gone berserk...

2008-12-02T21:46:00.002+08:00

holidays....woohoo~

anw...im super stressed! y, y, y does evryone like 2 organise chalets? its like i wanna b part of it but de timings r like always in d evening n i dun tink i can make it in d evenings lah!!! den, i oso haf 2 like pick n choose coz i dun tink my parents will allow me 2 go 4 all...

gosh i was so happy wen 4 bsc chalet, we had 2 meet up at 2.30 pm...so, at least i dun haf any probz...i knw i can go awhile...tapi....org lain semue nak dtg mlm so, time i cum, twas onli like 4 other ppl...boo~ doesnt help dat skarg musim sakit n org pergi holidays....

now, i juz received a msg frm iskandar inviting me 2 chalet n it's dis sat but it starts at 5pm...so, so, so, like wat time 2 do i leave? sebelum maghrib? lepas maghrib? gosh...it juz defeats de purpose of gg if i stay 4 dat short period but at least i still go kan? but still cam go all de way 2 pasir ris juz 4 2 hrs? n doesnt mean evryone will cum at dat time pun...dahlah nak solat pun nanti leceh kan?

argh...shd i go? onot?

haish...hmms...

calculus paper

2008-11-13T20:49:00.001+08:00

i tink i juz figured out how 2 do a 10 mark question. i blew a 10 mark question!!! argh!!! im pissed...n sad...

haix............

physical chem paper tmr morning...toodles...

exam, exam, exam

2008-11-08T21:40:00.002+08:00

exams r coming...wat's new?

time wasted

2008-08-11T20:34:00.002+08:00

argh! i've wasted de 3 day wkend!!! datz bad lah...haix...i was supposed 2 clear all my work i ended up finishing none...great...dat means dat i muz slp late 2nite, wake up early 2moro n slp late 2moro...clever me.

where did all my time management skills go to??

=/

amal is not happy. haix..

survived my 1st long day

2008-08-06T13:05:00.002+08:00

wowee~ no sch 2day! haha...juz 4 dis wk..de module starts nxt wk..supposed 2 haf 2 hrs of lesson on wed...

anw, i survived my 1st day of sch ystd!!! not onli dat, i survived 7 hours of lessons ystd!! ohh...if u rd my previous entry n gotta knw abt my 6 hours straight of lessons, well, sumhow, one of my modules was nt being reflected on my timetable..so, i found out on mon nite dat i haf 8 freaking hours straight of lessons on tuesdays! yepz...wif no break...n im wondering how 2 eat lunch n do my zuhur prayers...10.30a.m. to 6.30p.m worth of lessons...bt, yea, yesterday, one of my tutorials haven start yet so, datz y de 7 hrs...but frm nxt wk onwards...it's gonna b a crazy 4 hours of chem n 4 hours of maths....6 hours being lectures n 2 hours of tutorials...my head will b swimming man...

sch aside, i had a weird dream....dreamt sumting along the lines of a giant alligator n i repeat a GIANT one...it's ttotally huge like a swish of its tail can knock down parts of a building...i dunno wat it was doing lah but some bad guys apparently wanted 2 feed it n tried 2 hold ppl hostages juz 2 feed dis alligator...it was relli psycho coz dey were getting pleasure frm feeding us! n moz of us were still young kids ah...i relli cudnt stand it but i was helpless...i mean i juz cant imagine being fed 2 d alligator...sum of dem were shot first b4 being fed n i was hoping i wd b one of those who gets shot so dat i wun relli feel being eaten up u knw...but yea, twas relli scary lah...u hear dem screaming n im like juz one of dem waiting 4 my turn...luckily it neva came...i mean i woke up...so, yea, thankful 4 dat...

im still wondering wat triggered dat dream...so odd...i wasnt tinking of any alligators definitely or din even watch anything recently abt dem...or even read abt dem...

oh wells...who knws?

sch's started

2008-08-04T10:51:00.003+08:00

hello world! it's been quite some time....i've gottn my timetable n i'll b having a 3-day wkend! yay!...tho im nt sure if i prefer my laz sem timetable wen my free day was right smack in de middle of de wk...on wed...which is a nice break frm sch wen it gets too stressful...but ohwells, i've 2 survive aft all..so, my timetable will do..=)

downside is, i haf 6 hours straight of lessons on tuesday n 5 hours straight of lessons on thurs...blegh...n summore de tuesday..it's such bad timing...12.30 to 6.30! it's quite leceh lah...dahlah means i'll b hungry...since lunch will haf 2 b an early lunch if i eat at home...den, hafta miss zuhur unless i get released early frm chem n rush 2 solat or sumting...dat, we'll c how...n den, asar oso hafta kejar...moz likely, hafta maghrib in sch as well...so, means i'll b back late...at nite..alah...den, time puasa oso muz buke in sch...veri rushing lah tuesday...

thursday, i dun mind so much coz it's 8.30 to 1.30...pagi, is quite orait..but tues...i tink i mite slp in classes....k, hope not...

den my wed n fri only 2 hours of lessons each..=) nt so bad lah...juz dat my long days r relli long days...wif no breaks in btween summore...

hmms...oh ya, i din say y my wkend is 3 days instead of 2 days eh? well, it's bcoz...im nt in sch nw...i mean my mondays r free! yay! haha...no monday blues...=)

so, yea, anw, on sat, i went 2 one of my relatives' engagement ceremony...den time de wakil sebut de name...dat was a veri classic moment...he kept on saying de wrong name over n over...n de worst part was, dat was de twin sista's name! yepz...so, finally he managed 2 get it rite...kinda funny...but dat aside, de food was nice!! haha...n i met syida....was kinda surprised...so, we're actually related without knowing it...but yea, wish i was as peramah as her...she warms up so easily wif my parents n grand parents...im like veri quiet...hmms...i juz dunno how 2 talk 2 adults...datz weird~ im an adult nw...k, i dunno how 2 speak 2 d elders...esp ppl dat ive never met b4...i mean i can speak better 2 my aunts n all...but yea, juz nt evryone...

n im gonna b a teacher...i relli need 2 work on it..if nt, hw will i talk 2 teachers frm other schs, principals, parents, n whoever else i need 2 work with in de course of planning events n all...whoosh~ tinking of being a full-time teacher makes me tired...scared,,,but excited too...

wokae...enuff talk...i've gtg siap...gg out in awhile..=)

finally...a long entry..heh..bye! ( i feel more myself nw)

lost innocence

2008-08-02T14:34:00.001+08:00

i miss myself....

y izit dat as we grow up, we haf to lose innocence? i relli miss my inncocence...n once u lose it, dere's no getting it back...

haix....

camps

2008-07-24T12:51:00.003+08:00

heyheyhey....im gg 4 camp 2moro...gonna miss my laptop...it has been my faithful fren evryday....siince de holz started esp....n now...gg 2 2 camps...im gonna b leaving home 4 6 days...im so tempted 2 bring it along but it's juz nt practical...i haf 2 bring ennuff clothes 4 6 days 5 nites plus 2 days of wet games, 2 sets of costumes 4 being stationmasters, n dat, i tink, is alredi a lot...cant possibly lug around a laptop dat is gonna b weighing so much. oh wells...

kla, my mum da panggil mkn ni....tata 4 nw!

it's vacation n i din update?

2008-06-19T19:51:00.002+08:00

wow...i cant blif i've not typed a single entry since like b4 exams? like wow? hmm..i tink i alredi sed wow..heh..still...

anw, irah is going off 2 france in abt 7 more hours! im so jealous! it's been my dream destination since sec 1 wen i took up french as third language...haix...but im happy 4 her..n she sed she'll email me abt her experience while shez dere...*sighs* at times like dis, i relli wish i was in nus fass...i wd probably at least haf had a chance...budden agn...i juz cant imagine myself in arts stream...guess im not one who likes new things...im juz afraid 2 try out new stuff..oh wells...im juz destined 2 b a teacher lah...in de sci stream...

hmms...time flies so fast...i did enjoy de freedom of not gg 2 sch...but it's gona b back 2 work as mendaki tutor nxt wk...so now, gotta catch up wif lesson plans n wkshts n all...i relli haf 2 buck up now...gotta catch my discipline back...was tinking of getting some revision of laz yr's maths topics coz dere's de extension of de first sem's modules nxt sem...

now im stressed....but not so yet...coz aft all...it's still vacation? haha...im soo i dono wat..heh...

anw, 30th june's de day im gg 2 evergreen pri 2 observe classes...im more excited 4 my 2nd wk at wdlnds sec tho...guess coz im gona b a sec sch teacher n i relli wana knw how d environment, students n all r like? n plus i haf some students frm fuchun pri dat went 2 wdlnds sec so, dat'll make my stay more intresting, knowing some ppl dere...but de teacher in charge has still not called 2 schedule for an induction...will dere b one?

anw, was so hoping for a cousin's outing dis holz...guess now, wif evryone having diff schedules, it's relli difficult...now, abg muhd's in bali, aqilah's in indonesia, irah's gg 2 france...wowee...where am i? home...=(

i wana go shop...but at de same time..i dont...im crazy...

argh!

k, nvm...i am crazy...

so, anw, 've been keeping myself bz wif an addiction...which ppl mite find childish? gosh im twenty n still playing..umms neopets? heh...i juz like it...i dont knw...but ya lah..it's kind of a waste of time wen i can do other things...but...*shrugz*

hmms...kla, i tink i'll sign off 4 d moment...take care evryone!

Which major is suitable for me?

2008-04-04T19:32:00.004+08:00

WHAT MAJOR IS RIGHT FOR YOU?
created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as French/Spanish/OtherLanguage

You should strongly consider majoring (or minoring) in a foreign language, especially French or Spanish as they have a greater use in today's world. But other languages could be useful to you as well, such as Chinese, Japanese, German, Italian, or many others. With a major in a foreign language you could teach, or work for a company as a translator or foreign correspondant.

It is possible that the best major for you is your 2nd, 3rd, or even 5th listed category, so be sure to consider ALL majors in your OTHER high scoring categories (below). You may score high in a category you didnt think you would--it is possible that a great major for you is something you once dismissed as not for you. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it.

Consider adding a minor or double majoring to make yourself standout and to combine your interests. A minor in a foriegn language is useful for ANY major. Also, business or political science are great minors for a foreign language major. Please post your results in your myspace/blog/journal.

Accounting/Finance/Marketing

69%

Education/Counseling

69%

Psychology/Sociology

69%

French/Spanish/OtherLanguage

69%

Mathematics/Statistics

63%

English/Journalism/Comm

56%

Religion/Theology

56%

Biology/Chemistry/Geology

56%

HR/BusinessManagement

50%

History/Anthropology/LiberalArts

44%

Nursing/AthleticTraining/Health

44%

Visual&PerformingArts

44%

PoliticalScience/Philosophy

25%

Physics/Engineering/Computer

13%

Stumbled upon dis quiz, so I juz decided to try it out. It's amazing how the results are real accurate. as u can c, i haf my first four majors tied in first place at a not so high percentage of 69..it makes sense coz i din relli haf my mind set on a particular major or even haf an area of expertise in a particular field. n yea, i'm real intrested 2 learn languages esp french coz i onli did 3rd language french up to sec 3..kinda wasted...den, accounting, education n psychology were my considerations. so, de quiz is rather apt. i like. =) n yea, i am in education after all now.

anw, my thoughts of the day: i am a contented gal 2day. i can finally sleep peacefully!!! my als research paper is finally over! my ict project is finally over! now, i juz need 2 study 4 my laz maths tez, als tez, finish off finite maths assignment (it's another one, different from de one i mentioned in previous post), 2 lab reports...n yea, de semester wd b over...of coz, i din include exams juz yet...muz take things one at a time..rite?

ok, i tink i shd get 2 work real soon...i've procastinated enuff...haf some bks 2 mark n lesson plans 2 b done...dis is not related 2 sch tho..haix...but it's important coz it involves real students...

im worried 4 dem...kla, nitez!

stress

2008-03-28T21:44:00.004+08:00

like who hasnt heard abt it? evryone's all stress...juz got back from reading khai's post...n yea...i wanna list down my assignments too..heh...kepo...but nvm..khai wun mind, rite? =) n so de list is as follows:

Organic Chem Test-Monday
Finite Maths Assignment-Tuesday
SCLP/ICT + Summary Report-Thursday
Main Group Chem Test- Thursday
ALS Research Paper-Friday
ALS Test
Organic Chem Lab Report

Yea, it's all assignments and revisions...haix..oh wells...n yea, im soooo looking 4ward 2 3 months holz...it's relli like kinda a reward aft working so hard...=) yay! n khai, we muz catch up k? havent been talking 2 u dis sem...as a matter of fact...i need a friends gathering...2 remind me i still haf frenz...k, dat sounds silly...make me sound like i dun haf frenz...but relli...all my close frenz..so far away..haix..luv y'all...muz go out some day k?

cute

2008-03-21T22:59:00.002+08:00

juz now my youngest sis asked an interesting qn...

sis: mama, semut boleh ade kat atas cloud tak?
bro: mane boleh..semut tak boleh breathe lah gitu.
mum: lagipun semut mane boleh panjat sampai cloud. macam mane semut nak naik atas situ?
sis: semut boleh naik hot air balloon ape..

i thought my sister's comment on de hot air balloon was like so cute n funny...aishk...children n their thoughts...dey r adroable rite?

slengeness

2008-02-14T17:36:00.002+08:00

i was so slenge tau yesterday. i went 2 de driving centre in de morning. tot i was late. so i rushed dere n reached dere at 8.10a.m. so, went 2 scan my bbdc card n i was like...ok...wat's wrong? y izit not printing? im alredi late! so, went 2 ask 4 help...n de person on duty suggested dat i probably dun haf a lesson at 8 a.m. so, i went 2 check. n yes. de person was rite. my practical was scheduled 4 2.10p.m. so, i travelled all de way 2 bbd 4 nothing. yupz. gr8 story eh? =)

n i gtg do my maths assignment. bye2!

my life is a question mark

2008-01-26T15:58:00.000+08:00

i feel as if we're strangers...

holiday

2007-11-23T18:56:00.000+08:00

exams r over.

exams

2007-11-22T17:23:00.000+08:00

i juz dun feel like studying...n i haf 2 papers 2moro..both not covered...am i screwed or wat?

haix...i shd study but i juz cant!

excuses, excuses...

exams

2007-11-20T14:10:00.000+08:00

my 1st paper...over...but i din relli feel gd abt it...so, yea...honestly...im juz tinking abt 2moro...if 2day is bad, de paper dat im moz prepared for, wat abt 2moro...de subject im worst at..haix...y didnt i start studying at least a month b4?

my hp is...GONE!

2007-11-07T10:48:00.000+08:00

hello ppl...i haf some BIG news..which is why im updating..hmms....i tink im relli veri careless lah...knw wat happened? my hp got stolen right in front of my eyes....right in front of my closed eyes...i was aslp. my hp was on de table, right beside my head n i was facing de hp....im juz so shocked dat de thief dared 2 take de hp....imagine if i had woken up! but de point is i didnt...dunno y i was so tired. so amal 0 thief 1. so, yea...

anw, i blocked my hp number alredi...anyone who wants 2 contact me can email or contact me at home lah...so sori trouble evryone...

ohh...n im still shocked...it occured in sch..haix...oh wells...

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low energy level

2007-10-09T11:54:00.000+08:00

school drains my energy away like crazy...eargh! i wanna sleep...

n dat reminds me dat ive nt checked my exam timetable...im outta here...

lack of..

2007-09-26T09:48:00.000+08:00

i did not haf enough rest. raggh

laptop meets school

2007-09-20T12:18:00.000+08:00

wheee~ hello! im in sch wif my laptop 4 de 1st time! hahakz...jakon gitu eh? yea, juz configured my laptop jadi bolehlah pakai kat skola...tapi nak bawak seksa seh...berat! but still im like free frrom nw till 3 pm...at least berguna kan? i wdnt wanna study all de way..can go bonkers...actually wun lah..so, actually nt gd ah ade laptop..i distracted easily...hmm...

hancurlah azamku utk menjadi seorang yang berdisiplin...cabarannya meningkat! haha...i so drama lah...esp since i came here seh..dono y...suddenly i smangat artistic...kinda weird...but fun! anw, i muz not shatter my azam...i better not lah...if not...hmm...i oso donno..juz means i wun graduate well...n datz BAD...

kla, enough nonsensical talking...tata...

n im smsing u at de same time...=)

laptop

2007-09-19T21:43:00.000+08:00

i know im not IT savvy lah...anita pointed dat out 2 me in educational psychology lesson juz nw...tsktsk...anw, exploring my laptop is fun! haha...n boon hui had 2 say dat acer is not good...easily spoilt...*covers ears* im not listening to him. i tink my laptop is worth the money n i luv it. yes...no matter wat...it beats having a comp lah..tho i still need my pc 2 print notes...troublesome rite if want 2 pluck in n out de printer to de pc n laptop weneva i need it..so, yea...i dun mind..

anw, is asked if i wanna join him n yunus 4 handball..haha...cool eh? i had d intention of joining but i keep on 4getting 2 ask ppl around me simply coz im too bz now lah...sad eh? my mind's in a real mess i tell u...supposed 2 study 4 calculus now actually...2moro ade ujian...hmm...n juz now pun ah actually...i tink i flunk physical chem tez badly lah...haix...so much 4 im gonna do well in uni. grrtz...so irritating....

n ok..i shall go study...nitez..

crazy wk

2007-09-17T23:28:00.000+08:00

gosh...wen will de crazy wks end? another crazy wk dis wk n i've not even studied 4 my 2 upcoming tests!!! argh!!! n guess wat? so demoralizing lah...i got c+ for general chem...dangz...first tez da mcm tu n i tot i did fine...grrtz...n my teacher moderated summore...argh!!! trouble rite?

kla...anw, i dono y im still awake...k, actually coz i was testing my speech recognition thing in my laptop.. cool rite? hmm..not relli oso lah...coz de comp asik misunderstand me...sedih eh? haha..c lah...how 2 pass my test...supposed 2 study but use laptop functions...tsk...wen will i change? kate aje feel like a better student...oh wells...kla, gtg now...tata...

-lost-

2007-09-16T21:12:00.000+08:00

i feel so neglected..
im lacking of sumone's attention..
haix...
why is life like dis?

internet connection

2007-09-10T22:58:00.000+08:00

wokae...guess wat? i decided to switch on my laptop for the sole purpose of playing mahjong titans...it's a game...so...i smangatly played...wen i realised dat im actually connected to the internet!!! ok..ive been trying like mad 2 get an intetnet connection from my hse n ive decided 2 gif up n now...voila! haha...yea..i relli shd configure my wireless settings soon...but i dun like 2 talk 2 strangers lah...aqilah advised me 2 call up singnet n ask for their help to configure the wireless thingy at my pc...sighs...de trouble juz 4 dis laptop...

k, im not exactly into cool gadgets lah...so, i dun understand ppl's fascintaion of getting a technology...like example...some of my frenz get so fascinated wen dey c my hp which is touch screen..hmms..n im like indifferent to it..n ya, im happy 2 get my laptop but i wdnt say it's a dream come true or aniting..u knw wat i mean? oh ya, n sumone gave me an mp3 n i hardly use it...=/ sori...not dat i dun appreciate de gift...it's juz not very me 2 listen to songs n all...

i honestly think im gonna b de most backdated teacher wen ive graduated. i wonder hw im gonna keep up wif de students...oh wells...

anw, to u darling...i luv u...=)

screams

2007-09-06T15:31:00.000+08:00

i say aaargh!!! honestly...looking at wat i haf 2 do esp de readings dat i haf 2 rd up...i feel like going crazy...u know dat pressurised feeling...dat stressful feeling...sighs...honestly...i know i shd break de work up but achieving little by little juz wun make me feel like i achieved aniting...n de list wd juz grow...hmm...but i relli shd do sumting instead of procrastinating. but oh goodness...i need help.

i can i can i can.

i shd juz go do sumting now. period. tata.

personality test

2007-09-05T21:09:00.000+08:00

The Real You

Here is the analysis:

You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.
Your boyfriend thinks that you are a real doll but this is not a totally positive thing. Sometimes you can be a bit too sweet, and come across as being helpless. If you're like this too frequently, your boyfriend and other people are likely to get tired of you having to rely on them all the time.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test81.aspx

Is dat relli me?

sleep

2007-08-29T12:44:00.000+08:00

i want to sleep.

endless projects

2007-08-25T18:46:00.001+08:00

projects are a headache..

gesl

2007-08-24T04:56:00.000+08:00

evryone complains abt gesl...hmm...*shrugz* abt de time slot...like example, i dun need 2 cum 2 sch 2day...but at 5.30 pm, i haf gesl, so i haf 2 cum 2 sch 2day. yea.

anw, i had a weird dream abt me being power rangers...kinda of very weird...n not cool honestly...coz i knew i was gonna die..haix...n i was honestly trying 2 contact my grandparents coz ive not been in touch wif dem n i shd talk 2 dem b4 i die kinda thing...it's weird lah...relli...we were supposed 2 save de world...but sumhw, wen we almoz reached our destination, de evil ppl come n we were not strong enuff coz we were new rangers or sumting?

man...im 19, n ive not been watching tv so how in de world did power rangers come 2 my dreams?

laptop

2007-08-23T06:26:00.000+08:00

i was wondering wat's so important abt getting a laptop...n now, i c de reason y...i hardly haf any time at home...n announcements r always posted on de portal or sent 2 my email account...but i'll b so tired wen i get home dat i almoz always slp early. how early is early? abt 9 + pm? n i still suffer from lack of rez coz i wake up at abt 4+ am..n im like busy de whole day...i feel like dying alredi...kinda weird tho...im suddenly a better student than i ever was...n im still wondering y...

no time for tv. no time unless like 2day...i siap early so can use comp 4 awhile in de morning. i so dun appreciate de rush rush rush 4 time...crazy singaporeans. i wonder hw ppl survive...*sighs*

anw, juz a note: 15 july was a turning point..=)

falling apart

2007-06-28T13:29:00.000+08:00

evryting seems 2 b falling apart...

wat was blissful creates so much tension now...

haix...

food woes

2007-06-21T20:36:00.000+08:00

i made oats 4 myself 4 de 1st time n it's kinda diluted..bleagh...too much water...but i 4gif myself since it's de 1st time..at least nxt time i'll know wattodo...at least ade pape nak mkn...me n husna alone in de house at de moment coz my parents went jb 2 fetch my siblings n de maid..

yea man....ive had 2 days in de hse wif juz my mum dad n 2 sistas...wat a bliss...peace n quiet n privacy (no maid)...tho we did loadsa work...my mum dis loadsa spring cleaning coz my maid has not exactly been doing her job properly...den, me n my sistas helped around like folding a mountain of clothes dat we actually finished...n i relli mean a mountain of clothing or mebbe i shd say abt 4-5 baskets of clothing coz partly we juz came back from holidays...plus m,y big family of 9 excluding de maid. den, also had 2 vacuum n mop de hse...yupz...amal did housework! whee~ ahakz...

anw, i am gg 2 b a teacher. yea. accepted 2 NTU-NIE. =)

oh n i wanted 2 say hw i luv de chicken rice at sp...wif teriyaki sauce. yay! haha...okla, promised my sis she'll get de comp back at 8.45...nw's 8.43pm gtg...tata!

_________

2007-06-07T23:47:00.000+08:00

hmms...wat can i say?

my bf is at ns. n im here. n im gg jb 4 de wkend. n kl nxt fri.

life's like dat, rite? it is hard. but 2 b strong, dont we haf 2 get past d hard part?

*sighs* choices r hard 2 make. or even think abt.

im having a hard time thinking.

n sumhw, i juz feel like saying -life's a bitch-

where did dat come frm? ive no idea.

nitez.

juz sad?

2007-05-26T05:12:00.000+08:00

am i too sensitive? or izit relli like dat?

i feel so terasing from my cousinz...tho perhaps in a way it's kinda gd...makes me treasure my family even more...i tink i feel a lil closer 2 my siblings...but it still hurts looking at pix from my cousins' profiles...memories...

mayb it's me. mayb it had always been me...who knows?

Oh ya, Abg Mus...happy bday! tho moz likely u wun cum across dis post...

on cloud 9

2007-05-02T11:04:00.000+08:00

i juz wanna declare 2 de world dat i haf such a sweet boyfren..=) honestly, im juz so touched dat he bought me wat i like 2 make up 4 de fight we juz had...even tho it was both our faults i tink...

chocolates 4 me 2 bring 2 sch 2 eat during my free periods..*sighs* isnt dat sweet? he knows i dun like 2 go 2 de sch canteen...prefer 2 be cooped up in de staffroom..heh.

nevertheless...i relli treasure him...i luv u..=)

always angry

2007-04-28T12:25:00.000+08:00

mayb dere's sumting wrong wif me...i seem 2 luv arguing...n it's bad coz i tink i've been picking fights wif all those around me...haix...i hope i can stop dis bad habit of mine...i relli need 2 keep my anger n shouting in check. esp NOT lashing out at d students. yea. yea. ok...gg 2 buy fatin a bday present soon...=) bye..

gift from RI

2007-04-27T14:12:00.000+08:00

Cikgu Saripah is such a darling!!! Guess wat she gave me for doing relief teaching at RI? She gave me dis freaking nice notebook/organiser!!! n u knowlah how crazy i am over notebks rite? i tink dis mite b another one dat i wun use for such a long time...it's so sayang nak pakai lah...it's lawa...i neva eva buy notebks like dat coz de price usually puts me off but i've got one of my own!!! whee~

oh...n she oso gave me dis big white tudung...yay! i dun like wen ppl gimme small, small one u know..but de size she gave me was de juz rite one...so, im a very happy person 2day...=)

anw, teaching de RI guys malay is fun! haha...it relli was a new experience...but i wd readily do it agn given a chance. n i was given de chance to teach MSP too...so, yea, twas real cool...but i tink i relli need 2 brush up my mly...dah lame tak skola..i tink da karat sikit..=/ but den agn...oh wells...i survived..=)

n he's booking out 2day...*smilez*

bday

2007-04-11T11:34:00.000+08:00

nyehk...he's at camp now...officially went yesterday...so sad...dis yr oso neva get 2 celebrate bday wif him...

hmms..spend my bday yesterday at sch...my fuchun pri..hahakz...wel, de pri 5s found out dat it's my bday thx 2 batrisya who happened 2 ask whether my bday da lepas..kinda odd if u ask me..but anw, she den proceeded 2 write happy bday on de whiteboard.

at least malay is bcoming more manageable 2 teach nw..or so i tink...tho i was at a loss for de pri ones...so sori guys if my claz was xtremely boring ystd..i juz dun haf de expertise yet.

budden agn de pri 3s r kinda cute too..i mean pri ones r adorable..dat goes without saying..but de pri 3s were asking me qns on hw 2 do...i felt kinda stupid coz i wasnt sure either...n dey were like, mase cikgu mase training, diorg tak ajar cikgu ke? n i had 2 confess dat i haven gotten any training yet..heh..oops...i juz realised dat i shdnt b telling de students dat..hmm..oh wells..nvm...

wel, but anw, i found dis relli nice story while i was surfing de net searching 4 materials ystd...so, i told de story 2 de pri 3s n pri 5s...i know, dey enjoyed it as much as i did..yepz...

im still wondering how 2 make de students behave without resorting 2 shouting...nowadays, students dare 2 talk back n all..dey're juz too smart now...hmm..*shrugz*

life goes round n round till u get dizzy..

2007-03-30T21:40:00.000+08:00

sumhw, i feel like im d moz boring person on earth. perhaps i am.

well, juz hope my mum allows me 2 go out 2moro...dat'll b exciting...fatin wants 2 try out 4 anugerah! i relli hope she gets thru..=) hmms..oh wells, hope i get 2 arrive soon enuff 2 hear her sing..i haf claz ngaji which my mum wun allow me 2 ponteng. esp since i ponteng twice or was it thrice due to me being sick dis past wk. yea. but i wanna go out. hopefully can meet him too. *sighs* plz say yes mum.

wretched sickness

2007-03-27T10:41:00.000+08:00

ive been sick since saturday..yes..since..which means im still sick now..haix...n i slept thru my saturday n sunday...wat a waste of wkend! wonder wen i'll get well...hopefully soon...real soon...

sleepless

2007-03-24T04:36:00.000+08:00

had a freaking restless nite...woke up several times in de nite..

waiting is agony.

i wonder if dere is a gd explanation...dere better b...*sighs* am i very unreasonable? i feel so these days...

idiocy

2007-03-21T19:38:00.000+08:00

im stupid. i dun tink b4 i act. now, ive made a mistake. n i cant erase it.

my silent hp was driving me crazy. so, i decided to switch it off. probably a gd idea. i dun haf many frenz anw. if i were to count, probably only 3 or 4 dat i contact inc my bf. datz kinda pathetic. actually i kinda feel like dumping my hp in de rubbish bin or slamming it hard against de wall..but obviously, dat cant b done. my dad bought d hp 4 me. i dun haf de right 2 do wat i feel like doing juz bcoz im gg crazy due to dat dangz silence..

silence.

i tink ive had enuff of crying. but sumhw my brain doesnt tink so. i still cry evry now n den like some mad woman. it's a wonder im a teacher.

went out 2day. alone. all alone in de lib. wif de silent hp.

bought his fave choc 2 eat.

my fault. evryting dat happens is my fault. bcoz i dun tink. im such an insensitive brat.

teaching tmr n fri at admiralty pri. i rejected teaching 2day. if nt, dis whole wk i wd haf been teaching.

are romances in books just a fantasy?

teaching

2007-03-09T20:23:00.000+08:00

dis wk was a wowee wk. had relief teaching for 4 days in a row. n to top it up, yesterday n 2day, i relief not 1 teacher but 2 teachers. tired man running around. but still...

it juz melts ur heart wen de kids cum up 2 u 2 gif u sumting as simple as a drawing..
it makes u feel appreciated wen de kids enjoy ur lesson n dun want u 2 go..
it makes u feel like smiling wen de kids r juz so adorable..

but oh wells...dey can oso b very naughty...=)

i tink sumhw, dis wk was de most fulfilling days i've ever had. n i strongly feel it's got 2 do wif de heart. wen u do sumting sincerely..dat is wen u feel dat sense of satisfaction n happiness. yupz. those r my words of de day. or mayb month. i've hardly been updating. but anw, sch holz r here! time 2 collect new supplies 4 kids' lessons...

life

2007-01-12T08:32:00.000+08:00

my life juz rocks. NOT.

lazybum

2007-01-03T13:11:00.000+08:00

hurrah! wen all d siblings haf 2 go 2 sch...im at home...free 2 hog de comp!!! hehehe...im feeling happy...n kinda glad i dun hafta do relief teaching 2day...juz dun feel up 2 it...perhaps i shd look 4 another job...

anw, 2day was kinda cool..it was my 1st cooking day..haha...n wen i tgh cuci beras skali de minyak terletup2..k, cam takde link..i mean..my bibik nga panaskan minyak utk goreng ayam..den, mayb ade air or sumting ah coz de minyak totally started spewing all over..twas relli scary but kinda cool..heh...like my mum said, hai amal...masuk dapur terus sumting happen.

but anw, i had quite a bz morning in d dapur...like finally..im trying 2 learn sumting properly. oh ya, datz actually one of my new year resolutions. 2 b able 2 cook. =) n im gonna haf a go at baking too...whee~

so, yea, i have a hospital checkup 2moro...checking dat de wound's alrite i guess n finding out wat exactly was de thing growing in me. n planning 2 go shopping aft checkup. yay! haha...n if dere's time, perhaps register 4 driving license..ohwells...im so slow at evrything. shrugz...juz hope evrything goes well..

mp3

2006-12-27T21:21:00.000+08:00

wow! im relli relli surprised coz i relli relli din xpect aniting... basically, i got an mp3 player...n 4 me...who is not exactly tinking of getting any anytime soon, getting an mp3 was definitely a surprise ah...but anw, dun start asking me abt stuff on mp3 to compare or aniting..coz i seriously know nuts..heh...welcome world..to my life..i relli need 2 widen my horizons..tsktsk..=)

awake

2006-12-22T05:18:00.000+08:00

whee..im awake..it's almoz subuh..haix...

love makes me go crazy..

random

2006-12-22T03:04:00.000+08:00

im nt aslp. dun tink im gg to. n im using de comp without permission.

anw, im fine. my op went smoothly n im nt dead or havin any complications of any sort.

my life is...

perhaps im nt in de rite state of mind 2 make a proper entry.

prom

2006-11-30T22:16:00.000+08:00

yesterday was juz d perfect nite. i'll update more soon. =)

plain idiocy

2006-11-28T19:53:00.000+08:00

i am the lousiest girlfriend on earth. period.

gg official

2006-11-23T08:23:00.000+08:00

19 november 2006

me n him. him n me. how does dat sound? =)

Syawal

2006-10-25T06:05:00.000+08:00

my goodness...it's already syawal...time seems to go by even more quickly dis days...

anw, Selamat Hari Raye kuucapkan kepada semua umat Islam...minta maaf jika ada salah silap secara sengaja ataupun tidak. Minta maaf banyak2.

2 all my frenz taking A levels, all de bez!

so...it's 7 more days 2 A levels. If onli i cud say i'm prepared. but i tink it's kinda cool dat i'm not so panicky. oh wells. kla...happy day!

n i fell...

2006-10-08T10:19:00.000+08:00

my knees hurt...smlm, on de way 2 perdaus, i fell down...so sad...but k, at least i had some support wif me...=) bsides dat, perdaus had a first aid kit so, diyana who claims shez a qualified first aider in sch applied some medicine 4 me...den, sumhw craziness was around during buka puasa coz i onli ate kurma n drink water den solat maghrib n den wen evryone start 2 mkn lepas solat, i was bz giving out food lah, dis lah, dat lah...so, ya, i kinda started eating late...but it was fun ah..not bad...coz my mum bawakkan macaroni goreng. den de guys bought pizza. ustadz bawak kacang pool n somebody brought murtabak. yea! so, yea...but painful ah my knees...coz i go n solat cam biase...my knees makin sakit ah...haix...oh wells...but anw, i luv u...whee~

gastric

2006-09-29T05:46:00.000+08:00

haishk...fasting evryday is kinda taking a toll on me...wat wif trying hard 2 study, n my gastric coming along...y muz i haf gastric? haix...neva relli did affect my puasa dis bad b4...skarg baru 5th day puasa...but i'm alredi having gastric..n it's making me lose hours n concentration 4 revision! saddening...i tink im gonna screw up my A levels..n it's A levels man...=/

ramadhan is here..

2006-09-24T11:11:00.000+08:00

so, ramadhan is here agn...sumhw i juz haf de feeling dat im nt dat prepared 4 it...but hopefully, i'll turn over a new leaf..oh wells...i better..

anw, i tink i'm such a grouch of late...making ppl around me bingit n stressed as well. i was practically shouting 2 evryone i talked wif yesterday...real sori 4 dat..=/ sumtimes, i honestly dun mean hw things sound like wen dey r out of my mouth...sori k?

hmms...anw, i had fun on thurs...juz chilling out wif my mates after prelims...at least i had a day of fun...oh wells...now...dere's only like 30+ days 2 a levels...i better spank myself if i dun study...haix...i muz study man...~~esp since sum1 is promising 2 gif me sumting if i do my bez..yay!~~

anw, i dun relli rmmbr y izit i've been wanting 2 update..so, cant exactly say much currently...so, 2 all muslims...SELAMAT BERPUASA!

disappointment

2006-09-20T23:42:00.000+08:00

2day was i tink my 1st time feeling truely disappointed aft a hml paper....i totally dunno hw but i misread de qn n answered in a totally different manner!!! n datz 10 marks gone!!! haix...

anw, 2day was cool! went 2 airport 2 chill aft chem paper n do some work b4 hml paper. yepz, my 1st time gg 2 popeye's...whee~ haha...but de cool thing was dat we actually watched popeye cartoons while eating our meal...so fun!!! i tink im gg airport 2 study more often....perhaps bulan puase or sumting? d atmosphere is juz nice...oh wells...=)

anw, im rather disappointed dat dere's no terawih at perdaus...esp wen dere's no changes made 2 our timetable which means wen we get released, it's alredi time isyak so nak kejar kat masjid or wherever cam nomatter wat will b late ah....wattodo...

n i'm looking forward 2 2moro...chilling out aft prelims...

man...abt 5 more wks till A levels...can any1 save me?

disoriented

2006-09-16T03:26:00.000+08:00

i honestly need 2 get a grip on myself...apparently, my brain is getting totally out of sorts...guess it was a bad thing dat i had 2 go home alone coz aft i left sch, i msged my mum 2 kol me...dunno y i felt dat way but appparently, i relli needed sum1 2 tok 2 n i tot hearing my mum's voice wd relli, relli help. she didnt call me, let alone send a reply. so, i dunno...i juz kinda terase hati n i totally suddenly din feel like gg hme...so, i was juz tinking dat perhaps i shd gif her some time...so, i decided 2 go tamp lib. rd a bk coz my brain totally needed some rez. den, it was alredi 6.30. still no call n i was down in de dumps. so, decided 2 kol up a fren tho sumhw i juz had de feeling it wdnt help. n it didnt coz my fren was bz. sumhw, i gt toally upset n decided not 2 pick up any more calls. didnt know wat 2 do n so i burst into tears at de bustop. i juz put my head down coz i got a seat at de busstop n i juz started crying. den, after i felt ok, i decided 2 try one more person...tried msging a fren...waited 10 mins n i juz cdnt take it anymore...no reply so...i switched off my hp.

n so, i decided nt 2 go home. went 2 tamp lib n grabbed another bk. stayed till abt 7.35. n i was feeling tired. i totally needed a gd nite's slp. so, reasoned out myself 2 go home. finally. caught de bus n den i started crying on de way hme agn. wat's wrong wif me? i tink i need 2 c a psychiatrist or sumting. totally. coz i am gg crazy. hw many times haf i cried dis wk?

den, managed 2 rez a bit in de bus. was feeling miserable. wondering if anyone missed me. so, i managed 2 reach home at 8.30. no one even said hi 2 me. my mum was in her rm tgh solat. so, i guess no one tried 2 contact me aft all. if nt wdnt dey b worried y i msged at 6 n reach hme at 8.30? y doesnt anyone seem 2 care anymore?

i took out de tilam n went straight 2 slp. with my uniform n jacket still on. cried myself to slp. n yea, i din eat dinner. actually nt even a proper lunch. breakfast was juz a slice of bread i tink. lunch was plain waffle n a snickers bar. n i was hungry. but no one asked anw.

dis wk has been a totally maddenning week. my brain is juz overworked. have been having 2 papers almoz evryday. n yesterday? abt 3 papers sort of. physics paper 1, physics paper 2 n hml paper 2.

tho it was a wonder hw i cd answer my hml qn. tot i wd b leaving at least a section blank.oh wells... all in all, dis has been a totally horrible wk. i juz hope it doesnt continue.

i'm feeling so utterly miserable wif myself dat i almoz wished it was possible 2 start life anew at some place new. at least den, i can try 2 find myself, n build up a sturdy character without anybody's influence. haix...i tink i need a counsellor.

as seconds tick

2006-09-10T03:31:00.000+08:00

as seconds tick, as minutes pass, as days go by...

haix...monday is prelims...my revision is perhaps as gd as none. gr8.

u know dere r times....many, many times, wen i tink i made stupid choices....stupid choices coz i know i shdnt do it but i still do it in d end. i cant say i'm stupid coz de fact is i aint stupid. i'm blessed wif a brain dat working juz fine. so, y do i still make these choices???

everyday, i'm being reminded of how much Allah loves me such dat dere r times wen i feel like I dun deserve Allah's love. wat haf i done to return Allah's love for me. HE never gives up on me. even tho i've done soo many mistakes....i shd feel blessed. n i shd stop making mistakes den. nw, i almoz wish i'm perfect.

i juz do not know wat else to say...i feel like i'm in a dilemma...i'm torn apart...i honestly do not know at i shd do..or mayb i juz refuse to listen to my heart.

dere r so many times dat i feel like juz giving my life up...but i cant coz i'm a Muslim. wat a thing 2 say...but i know deep in my haert i dun wanna end life...i want 2 c my future...get hold of my dreams...but at de same time...it's like evrything dat keeps running around in my brain, evrything dat tugs at me, evrything dat i'm constantly thinking off is driving me crazy at de same time i'm still sane enuff 2 not make me go crazy. get wat i mean? n dis makes me feel so helpless n confused.

so, tell me...wat shd my nxt step be?

y muz i go to a university??? i've asked myself dis qn countless of times dis yr. n i realised dat im gg dere juz bcoz it was a route i had 2 follow. i mean...wen i was young, dere was juz no qualms on wat route to take. i was supposed 2 go pri sch, sec sch, jc den uni. but do i relli want 2 b dere? i wish i cd study bcoz i want 2 study. i wish i cd b passionate abt studying like how tokoh2 agama dulu semua memajukan sains n wat not.

but no. i'm juz a useless bum wif no aim in her life for studies....sum1 who ironically wants 2 b a teacher.

y cant i juz gif up?

temptations r juz so hard 2 resist. sighs.

exams

2006-09-06T08:24:00.000+08:00

haix...onli a few more days till prelims...n de schdeule totally rox my socks..NOT. haix...sumhw, for de 1st time, hml paper 2 is b4 hml paper 1. n datz de worst coz dere's so many components to blaja for paper 2 n we haf like loadsa time 2 study for paper 1 which u can score a decent grade without studying. haix...y oh y?

anw, my hopes for a decent grade for all my subjects are totally dashed. i'm nt even confident of hml dis time round. like dere's dis amt of time...n den dere's de whole prob of my attitude...haix...i wish i was naturally hardworking. dat will totally solve a big problem.

oh wells...4 nw, *shrugz* we'll juz c my grades.

stressed

2006-09-03T09:55:00.000+08:00

haix...i tink i make myself think too much abt soo many things...i'm feeling so pressured! i so easily breakdown n cry these days...not to mention getting aangry at everyone around me. plus i keep on keeping things within myself tho i knw it's nt gd.

i love organising things but dis is definitely one activity dat i feel like backing out of organising. it's juz too much...i wish i can juz lepaskan de tanggungjawab....but i feel mean to let kak shafa shoulder evrything herself esp since shez taking a levels dis yr too...n to give up de responsibilty to my other clazmates....i'm nt sure who is de best candidate...n almoz evryone's taking o levels dis yr. haishk.

den....well, loadsa of things haf been happening...like, on fri, went 2 study wif khai...managed 2 understand sajak component. now left 5 other components if u count bahasa paper in. den, fri nite...went bowling...ade competition...family-based. i was kinda ok for de 1st game but i totally bombed de 2nd game....so many gutter balls n made me leave de bowling centre in disappointtment. i relli felt so down seh...

den, yesterday, went to perdaus late. haishk, a pinch out of my marks alredi for not coming punctually. i had 2 b late on de 1st day dey start to take note of things. gr8. but anw, met my ustazah n ustaz frm darul furqan. oh, n raiyyan, my ex-clasmate at wisma indah. whoa, he actually rmmbrd me. n he was asking loadsa qns smlm...padahal, dulu kiteorg tak pernah berbual. den, i oso met noorjahan. a wonder she rmmbrd my full name coz we juz took muis psle 2geder but i dun tink we talked 2 each other.

anw...i'm intrested 2 join darul furqan youth club but oh wells...not too sure if im gg 2 de workshop dis wed. seems so intruding amidst my revision. haix.

n i keep on tinking dat u're angry at me. isit juz me?

oh wells....n so many ppl not joing my madrasah claz yahoogrp. esp de guys. it's juz so frustrating to alias evryting. hate everything. eargh!

oh ya, n i'm still having loadsa conflicts wif my ownself. so yea, dat shd complete all dat i'm stressed abt i tink.

prelims is one wk away. wat haf i done?

hey..

2006-08-31T16:54:00.000+08:00

it definitely has been a very long time since i last gave a proper update in dis blog...i guess dere's juz been too many things happening such dat i juz dunno hw 2 xpress evryting out.

Anw, 2day was teacher's day! my clazmates n I got keychains from d order form dat we got at perdaus 4 our teachers. de keychains relli look nice n cool! yep....but i'm freaking broke....bcoz i paid for all d orders 1st which using my own savings, i spent $72.50 yea, ain't dat a lot of money? so, anw, my clazmates werent relli happy abt giving juz keychains as presents i guess bcoz, dey went out yesterday 2 buy more things...haishk...more money. anw, went out late juz now n met my clamates at de void deck opp sch. haha...n we skipped classes to siapkan our presents. craziness. but we had 1 period of lessons stil;l apparently. hmm...not badlah...1 out of 3 periods...at least sumting.

hmm...concert dis yr was quite biased as it catered more to the yr ones...aft all, d yr ones are d ones organising d concert. so, twas quite mendak compared to laz yr.

so, anyhows, wd like 2 wish ALL my teachers.. a HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!!!

new bag

2006-08-13T12:11:00.000+08:00

whee~ i got a new sch bag!!! n it's pink! nice~ hmms...de current sch bag i'm using is kinda falling pieces...but can still be used ah but anyhows...i got a new one!!! yay!!!

yupz...n so...yea...=)

irritated

2006-07-30T21:46:00.000+08:00

grrgrrgrrr....man...chemistry's so frustrating!!! tried 2 do carbohydrates tutorial n oh my...de notes is of little use 2 me! not 2 mention dat it seems dat my chem resources dengki pasal chem guidebk only offer environmental option n chem longman textb gives all other options EXCEPT biochem...like man...freaking dangz seh..

n maths is equally frustrating. sum1 help me wif vectors!!! i haven even clear de 1st tutorial...oh Allah...pls gif me de patience 2 survive dis period. thank u. luv u.

me

2006-07-30T13:36:00.000+08:00

since laz time till now, i've always been doing constant reflections on myself to find out wat's wrong wif me, wat i shd try 2 change, wat i can improve on n watsoever... n dere r definitely times wen i relli believe dat i'm very insensitive 2 others no matter how sensitive i am. datz kinda contradicting but smehw...i dunno...i guess i'm sensitive not exactly at de rite times? sumtimes..i'm juz 2 caught up in my own problems 2 c dat others r oso having problems...sumtimes, i guess i'm juz selfish...sumtimes, i'm juz stupid n dun realise it...n sumtimes i juz do things without thinking....

i honestly feel so bad wen i realise wat i've done or wat i missed out or wateva....n it hurts me a lot 2 know dat i've been insensitive....i guess i've neva been observant coz it neva seemed 2 matter in my life. all my life i've been stupid no matter how clever i was. i wdnt know hw 2 xplain it properly lah. but i d know dat amidst my cleverness...i can honestly b freaking stupid in things other than academics n i'm honestly, sincerely sorry 2 whomever dat i might've eva hurt in my whole entire life.

now though...it matters...i'm still trying n i'm sorry if i'm not gd at it. sorry.

n i tink i owe my close frens an apology. i'm juz a hypocrite who's selfish. i'm sorry.

sumtimes, i'm juz so tempted 2 slap myself. sumtimes...i juz dun understand y i do things wen i know i make myself feel guilty aft dat. am i juz plain stupid or wat? oh wells...

touchy

2006-07-28T02:53:00.000+08:00

i tink i'm a grouch. ouch.

sumhw i dunno if im turning crazy or wat...

sumtimes i juz dun understand hw my mind works...

oh wells...

hmms...

2006-07-23T12:50:00.000+08:00

y, y, y, muz i ban myself from chocolates??? i'm suffering seh...my daily snacks used 2 b chocolate based so now without chocs, i haf a limited range of things 2 eat...n me...wif a high metabolism rate...i need food!!! grrtz...like nw..i'm hungry...grrr...

anw, smlm i found out frm my ustaz dat de sec 4s dis yr kat perdaus, including me...will nt b taking o levels madrasah...tis so unfair!!! i wanted it so much seh...i was honestly tinking of gonna do my bez n all n i found out dat i wun b taking it only now?! haix...sgt menyedihkan...tho perhaps others wd seh it's a relief since im taking a levels dis yr but i want o levels madrasah!!! irritating seh....i wanted 2 know hw well i know things...how i am compared 2 other madrasahs n all u know...haish...

anw, i like neopets..haha...thank u 4 being my fren...=)

bahasa melayu itu indah

2006-07-14T19:04:00.000+08:00

bianglala itu pelangi.

anggota panitia itu ahli jawatankuasa.

i like mlep. yay! =)

lost~

2006-07-09T11:33:00.000+08:00

was reading some of my past entries from my various blogs n it juz reminded me how i've lost myself in dis sch...it's like my identity...wat i used 2 b proud of, wat i used 2 associate myself wif...it's all lost....

sumtimes, i honestly do not know wat 2 think...dere's juz 2 many qns swimming in my head dat r left unanswered....sumtimes...wen i tink of all dis qns...i juz block these qns out of my head coz i juz do not want 2 cum 2 a conclusion. i do not want 2 know d real answer to these qns...

sumtimes, i feel like i've let down myself, let down evryone around me.

sumtimes...i juz dunno wat 2 think.

i juz feel like blocking evryting rite now n juz focus on my studies...but in dat process, ppl will get hurt?

honestly....wat do i want in life? i do know tho dat i hate regrets n i wanna live life without any regrets....

*surrenders* i give up. my brain has juz lost d ability 2 think rationally. n i've juz got loadsa depressing negative words 2 describe myself. y? coz i lack of self-esteem. wateva.

new beginnings..

2006-07-06T04:14:00.000+08:00

and a new chapter begins as of 2day...

determination n discipline is of utmost important. i juz hope i dun let myself down. i MUST NOT let myself down. yea.

everything went wrong..

2006-07-02T05:39:00.000+08:00

yesterday...sumhow...evryting din go very well...1stly, i woke up late..din haf time 2 prepare my madrasah things so, i juz went off aft i siap n of coz reached sch late. aft dat, me n fatin as facis, we got a topic dat we din quite understand. den, mase perbincangan...we started off stuck. as in berbual sikit den aft dat dunno wat else 2 bring up..haix...den, bile finally dah brainstorm byk2, mase presentation pulak, whoever supposed 2 ype out the things 4 us on ppt typed totally diff things....none of de points yg kiteorg da brainstorm...kau...i was so sad! my grp's effort tau...sedih seh...n den kumpulan yg lagi 2 dpt mase yg lebih utk complete their ppt slides. unfair!

hmm...den, bilik solat was at blk b instead of blk d. den shutters 2 de stairs were basically closed. leceh seh. terpakse naik stairs kat general office...n bilik solat was at hujung blk b. bagus sgtlah tu. after lunch, i rushed home 2 siap 4 madrasah...n well, can guess lah...i lmbt 4 madrasah as well...haix..

den, dpt balik report bk, i was sooo saddenned dat i did quite badly...as in percentage wise...k, but dat prob was solved coz apparently, dere were some miscalculations so..yea..not bad... but i din get de position dat i wanted...oh wells...

hmms...den, dah released..my mum called 2 say shez fetching me...man, i relli am sorry...tried 2 get out of it but well...doesnt make sense dat i wanna balik sendiri wen my parents r at tampines alredi. so, i had 2 agree...i was relli heartbroken...i'm relli sori...den, had some misunderstanding wif my parents so i tink i made 2 ppl bingit wif me yesterday...my parents waited 4 me at another bus stop. den shortly aft picking me up, we went 2 mkn mlm...datz wen i realised it was my mum's bday. den, i felt soo selfish aft dat. haix...

anw, juz sumting intresting...my parents + my other relatives nga blaja ngaji wif taufik batisah's dad..haha...cool eh? yesterday was de 1st lesson at my aunt's hse. yupz...

n dat was my day yesterday...*shrugz*

kla, tapi overall, de day not bad lah...kat seminar belia i made newfriends...twas rather fun actually...tho i was quite sad pasal tk dpt stay utk pelancaran bulan bahasa...i wanted 2 watch NJ perform. n dere was an embarassing moment ah. c, one of de NJ performers was hizam, i knew him frm mendaki camp. skali, mase i was walking, he waved at me, so, i was happylah...ingatkan he rmmbrd me...so, i waved back n smile...he muz haf tot my reaction 2 b weird coz apparently he din rmmbr me n waved 2 me coz he wanted 2 ask where de bilik solat 4 guys was. man...felt so idiotic aft dat.

oh wells...as i sed...tho yesterday was fine...everyting juz seemed 2 go wrong...sumhow...oh wells...wat can i say? i juz know dat i neva eva wanna quarrel wif u...relli...

xpressing sumting

2006-06-26T20:06:00.000+08:00

my boat has drifted far out 2 sea...dere's strong currents bringing me dere...de wind is against me...the weather's juz not rite...n i'm trying to pass thur dis turmoil... hoping 2 get 2 shore once more...sumtimes, i tink i see a glimpse of de shore but den...my boat starts to drift away once more...d only prob now is...even though i do want 2 get back 2 shore, even though i do wanna live life like i used to..but i've gotten used to de life out in de sea...far away from wat i know...adventurous..however...dere r times wen i'm indeed treading on dangerous waters...

i muz b careful...n i haf 2 get back 2 shore..n try 2 4get my life out at sea...dat is if i want to avoid any complications...

haix...following de heart is juz so easy...following de mind...is unfortunately not.

cool date

2006-06-20T21:59:00.000+08:00

20062006

isnt dat a nice date? so cool!

a day full of memories...

20122012 is exactly 6 1/2 yrs later...hmms...*props head up on table* i wonder..

study time

2006-06-20T04:51:00.000+08:00

yesterday was fun...heh...tho it was meant 2 b serious since me n khai were supposed 2 b studying...but wen u haf hazmi around, things juz bcum kecoh..heh...plus de fact dat sharifah was around...

k, kisahnye begini...me, khai n hazmi went 2 meet at wdlnds 2 blaja...lib was packed, so, we went wdlnds pt. den, while studying, we bought sumting at macs. khai bought apple pie n i bought sundae! haha...n we were complaining abt de food 2 each other coz apple pie not hot n de sundae....hot fudge keras plus it was all over de spoon! my guess is de person who made de sundae masukkan spoon dlm ice cream baru letak hot fudge...so irritating!!anw, evry nw n den, hazmi wd crack one of his jokes n we'll b all left laughing. so, skali, mase tgh blaja....sharifah happen 2 cum dere wif her fren. haha...dat girl is nuts lah...came all de way from national lib 2 wdlnds pt pasal kat national lib takde tmpt. cam style gitu. den, wen we decided 2 knock off, 5 of us went 2 mkn at kfc. nilah...session mkn yg kecoh giler....tsktsk...but it was gr8...looking forward 2 reunions after a levels...i nak organise! haha...it's usually me anw...hmms...oh wells, but it makes me happy..=)

hmm...so, 2day im gg sch...boo...i wish i can focus easily...haix...my revision or wateva u call it aint gg so smoothly...haix...as always...

rainy weather

2006-06-19T10:47:00.000+08:00

haix...i dislike cold weather...i've been sneezing a lot seh 2day...den now oso still having dat running nose...aishk...

anw, i luv pink! haha...not de striking pink but de light pink kind...coz it's sweet..heh..yea..

bt anw, aside from my nose...cold weather...well, at least it's not burning hot...rite? so, i shd still feel grateful...oh wells...

oh ya, u know d other day...i was actually thinking dat i prefer housework 2 studies...it's like i sed i wd start focus but den i sumhw focused my energy in2 doing household chores...n neglect my studies...so perhaps, nxt time wen i make a promise, i shd b more specific..heh...oh ya, btw i'm suddenly very rajin 2 actually do household chores is bcoz...i've had no maid in de hse since 31st may...cool eh? haha...k, not quite but it does gif me a sense of satisfaction doing housework...u know...like yay! i did it myself kinda thing...plus if de hse is very pleasant looking it's bcoz me n my siblings cleaned up de hse n not juz sum1. u know...

k, nvm...anw...yea...i gtg..=) n yay! i'll b studying wif khai 2day...

slpover

2006-06-19T04:39:00.000+08:00

slept over at my nenek's hse on sat nite..she n my atuk n fitriah's family baru balik dari Indonesia..bt anw, sleeping over was fun...definitely didn't regret it.. aqilah n irah were dere...heh..i managed 2 persuade irah 2 slp over n aqilah finding out dat we were slping over decided 2 slpover skali. den my adik n her gang, ifah n yaya, pun slpover. kiteorg semue tido lmbt seh...dlm kul 2, 3 gitu..i was laughing like mad aqilah's craziness...twas relli fun coz i felt genuinely happy n cheerful dat nite...

cousinz can juz rawk ur werld...=) datz from de bottom of my heart. anw, nxt dat...we kinda woke up quite early considering dat we slept late. i woke up at abt 8.35. den went 2 mandi n sarapan. den kejut de rez of my cousinz...den, we all siap utk gi lib! haha...but anw, i enjoyed de day out very much. *winkz*

so, yea....i luv my cousinz..dey simply rock!

kool..

2006-06-17T07:04:00.000+08:00

haha...juz thought i wanted 2 share dis...*grinz*

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half de holz gone..

2006-06-14T11:27:00.000+08:00

hello everyone...i'm finally back from any kind of holiday..so, nw...it's definitely time 2 concentrate n focus on studies..=/

i tink it's kinda crazy dat i went to KL n melaka for 4 days n den went 2 Kuantan, Terengganu n KL 4 5 days. haishk....i've been seriously slacking n datz bad seh...bcoz of dis holidaying...i've alredi kinda wasted 2 wks plus of holz n dere's common tez wen sch reopens...ain't i clever? very. haix...such an idiot lah me.

anw, abg, wanna say thx 4 ur reminder 4 me 2 start studying. u knw i actually dreamt dat u came over 2 sch 2 find out how's my preparations 4 a levels coming along...had de drm aft i read ur tag ah..but anw, yea, i knw laz yr, i was oso asking u 2 study i tink. i guess..it's relli easier sed than done. haix...how i wish i can prioritise things. but anw abg, dun worry. i'm gonna make sure i focus from now on. i promise.

so, i gtg off now n start planning my time properly. plzplzplz dun let my laziness come out...yea...bye2..

de holidays...

2006-05-31T03:57:00.000+08:00

heyy...cant seem 2 b able 2 sleep...i've woken up twice b4 dis i tink, so, i decided 2 update my blog...yepz...

anw, i'm crazy! haha....it's d 1st time in my whole entire life if i rmmbr correctly, dat i watch 2 movies in 2 consecutive days. but anw, i dun regret it coz de 2 movies were great!!! i watched x men n da vinci code btw. it was fabulous. n...juz wen i was smangat french language, i heard d actors talking in french a lot in the da vinci code. oui, je suis heureux! j'aime le français.

yea..so, anw, i'll b gg 2 kl 2day! whee~ wif my schmates...yepz...gonna b away 4 4 days....=) i tink i'm not bringing my camera. coz my manual one is lost. n digital camera...well, my sis gg 2 batam on fri...she wants it too...oh wells...

btw, dis is a sentence--> sayang sayang sayang. make sense? non?

à propos, je vous manquerai aussi, mon cher. je t'aime.

au revoir!

exams over, holz here

2006-05-28T05:55:00.000+08:00

whee~ exams r finally over 4 de moment. madrasah exams yesterday was torture man...finished all de papers rather early. was so sleepy n hungry. but anw, im freaking lucky dat laz minute information does find its way in2 my head. i onli started studyying at abt 3 + yesterday. din read my hadith at all. nasib baik i hafal de hadith hafalan tho. at least datz 10 marks. hmms...so, yea, hadith sure fail. couldnt even rmmbr wat's zahid. thankfully de rez was fine. sirah was quite a surprise. managed 2 answer all qns i tink. yupz. n 2 think i finished studying sirah at 5pm. bagus kan? my exam supposed 2 start at 5 btw. yepz...so, now hooray, hooray 4 awhile den muz get back 2 studying coz physics n chem not over yet....boo 4 exams. grr...

Je pense toujours a toi

totally unprepared

2006-05-26T04:11:00.000+08:00

unprepared 4 gp

unprepared 4 maths

in total=i'm screwed

argh! i so haf no confidence in de papers im taking 2day! n yesterday was like pure torture, imagine writing 4 3 hours!!! it's like...tangan sakit, mind gone blank n tired, eyes red, hmm...ya...

n im relli not supposed 2 b here, not supposed 2 b here, not supposed 2 b here, so...umms...k, i shall do my revision now. wish me LOADSA luck. tata.

exams

2006-05-25T06:33:00.000+08:00

n so....common tez begins agn after a month. oh man....i'm feeling so freaking tempted 2 SLEEP! n i actually tink i mite fall in2 de trap...n de craziest part is. revision 4 SKMK n SKMM not done. Sejarah Melayu, only halfway. Keluarga Gerilya, i gave up on it coz relli dunno watto study. n sajak...errr...depends on de sajak i get later lah huh...i was neva gd at interpreting sajak. oh wells...

hmms...so, now, mayb i'll slp 4 another half hour. hope i'll keep 2 dat. den, chiong blaja all de way till...umms...ntahlah...dunno wat time i shd go sch. at least i decided 2 puasa 2day so no need 2 care abt lunch. =)

kla, i shall go off 1st. hmms...yea...wish me luck!

lil princess

2006-05-23T22:13:00.000+08:00

im in a dancing mood! *twirls around* hahakz... k, nvm...anw, i shd start panicking but im not n mlep paer is onli erms....1 1/2 days away. gr8 amal. flunk it. tsktsk. had soo much time but i whiled away all de time i had 2 study...n now....out of 5 components, will i even finish studying one whole component?

anw, 2day was a happy day i tink. =) yea. dunno y tho. but my parents fetched me from sch. thx 4 waiting...hmms....actually i dunno wat 2 say ah. so, i'll juz make dis entry short. nitez!

limits

2006-05-23T00:30:00.000+08:00

sumtimes...i feel dat i push things a lil too fast n den things start going too fast 4 my liking n i end up being irritated at it....i relli. wonder...wat's de hurry 4 me 2 grow up? i relli shd take my time n savour de moments of growing up....yepz.

anw, i relli dun understand myself. i knw i haf issues abt not eating regularly but i still do it n den i suffer d effects. i'm so plain weird lah.

oh wells...actually, im feelint pretty zonked out rite now. juz woke up frm slp actually..was tinking of studying but i tink a headache's coming..nt sure if i'll b able 2 actually concentrate n study. oh wells...

my chocolate ban is almoz over....*smilez* n one more day till de new bill starts. man...i've alredi exceeded both my mins n msgs...teruk seh...kla, tata!

confession

2006-05-18T03:20:00.000+08:00

confession: i don't dare fall in love...

i guess i'm not sum1 who likes to take risks...as far as possible i try 2 avoid them. n i know ive been trying not 2 give my heart away coz i want 2 give my heart only 2 de guy i'm confirmed marrying...coz in dat way, dere wun b much heartbreaks, rite? or problems...i dunno...n i juz haf a feeling dat if i eva give my heart away, i'll neva b able 2 retrieve it back or at least fully anw...which means wen i fall in luv, i'll moz prob fall hard which would make it difficult 4 me 2 stand upright agn should anything happens...

how do u define love anw? i used 2 feel dat i'll juz know it wen it comes...like i'm supposed 2 haf a magical feeling...sumtimes i wonder if im living in fantasy still but relli, i do put love on a high pedestal. guess i juz believe a lot in it. has 2 do wif watching my parents, my grandparents...dey're my source of inspiration dat marriage can indeed be a bliss n i do wanna believe in dat. but i also do think dat love is built upon trust and understanding and caring 4 each other and dat love can be nurtured. if dats de case den de prob now is juz...2 wat extent...sumtimes, i hate myself 4 neva being able 2 distinguish de line....fren....who is considered a fren? my thoughts are all juz so jumbled up but heyy...no worries to anyone...coz, i'm juz giving a thought on wat i feel but relli...rite now, it's not dat severe so, i can still live wif dis jumbled-up mind. heh. but honestly, i wished i knew where my feelings lie...n i honestly hope dat khai will take d early bus...hmms...

yea...now, shall do my hmewk. haf a gd day!

sweet dreamz

2006-05-14T17:42:00.000+08:00

dreams are indeed sweet. It's been 4 times dis wk. dat's more than half a wk. *smilez*

three days of self-declared holiday

2006-05-11T13:41:00.000+08:00

i've not gone 2 sch since tues...den 2moro vesak day...a pity i hafta go sch on sat if not it'll b like 6 days of no sch..heh...but being sick is relli irritating. cant even do my sch work. plus i dun feel like im recovering. even tho i take my medicine. boo.

sighs....ive been resting loads at home for 2 days alredi...if 2day is used up 4 resting n 2moro is mother's day gathering, wen will i find de time 2 study 4 maths tez on sat? not 2 mention physics tez dat i din take on tues, plus chem SPA on dat i din take yesterday, plus gp compre tez dat i din take 2day. like wadde...dere's tez evryday!!! oh n i oso 4got...dere was sejarah melayu tez on tues oso.

i'm sick due 2 seasports mozly. or so i blif. tho i was alredi starting 2 feel sick b4 seasports but relli, seasports triggered d whole thing ah. extreme conditions...heat...freaking hot dat day...den my water bottle tertinggal kat skola, so perhaps i was dehydrated...hmms...den, mase nak balik belum dry betul ah actually...den, i took mrt home so i tink i kinda got de chills...u know...yea...oh wells...

anw, juz hope i can survive all de tests coming up. how i wish i can juz fail all n not b bothered abt aniting. haix..fact is..i wanna do well...who doesn't? =(

kla...bye...

boo

2006-05-06T22:11:00.000+08:00

2day is a bad day. kept getting headaches n watnots...as it is, i am currently having a headache but i wanna get dis entry up 1st. anw, yea...n so, i din do anything related 2 sch 2day. n i even tried 2 sleep the headaches off at times. plus i was trying out dk moves 4 mother's day...tho still not confirmed if dere's gonna b dk. haish...den, i oso kept on feeding things in2 my mouth. skejap2 masuk dapur. not sure if i ate 2 much. honestly i dun tink i did but my stomach doesnt relli feel very ok n i feel like vomitting. y am i feeling like dis...haix....

oh ya, n dere's sumting dat i've always kinda wondered....wat wd happen if it so happens dat i find out one day dat i haf an incurable disease or sumting?

yea...juz wanted 2 say dat out loud...coz...sumtimes...i dunno...i juz kinda get scared wen i feel some pain in my chest or umms...wateva lah...but i dun exactly wanna go 2 a doctor 2 find out something either. hm,ms...but otherwise, so far i'm fine. so, life goes on. n i hope dere is nothing wrong wif me. i am juz scaring myself. nite2 evryone...i'm gonna get over my splitting headache. it'll b fine 2moro i hope...

yea...cheerios~

sports day

2006-05-05T22:01:00.000+08:00

sports day.

whee~! funfunfun!!! i luvvvv 2 cheer...haha...plus dis yr de spirit dpt rase ah....i luvvv seagull! we rock!! haha...best house 4 gals...doesnt matter dat we're nt champion house but we did great still....
hmm...anw, tadi watched nangnak kat rumah fatin. hmm. oh n fatin's hse soooo nice!!! i nak pindah ah kat rumah dier...=/

n me n khai reached hme at abt 8.

my leg aches.. from too much walking n running since laz wk. all started from 2.4 lah ni.

lost items

2006-04-26T20:25:00.000+08:00

haish...sumtimes i relli wonder y i bother 2 lend things 2 ppl. now, my scissors i gone. stapler is gone. staples oso gone. juz bcoz i lent it 2 ppl. gr8. n 2 think my stationery be it wateva r d moz precious things 2 me. i happen treasure my stationery. i feel so lost without one thing. haix...sadness of it all. kindness...u get...hmms...

oh wells...anw, 2day was kinda a bad day. kept on sneezing all de way from claz 2 claz. used up quite a lo of tissue. n i was so desperate at wdlnds lib dat i actually took a long piece of toilet paper...so it cd laz me thruout de time i was dere. n i tink d aircon juz made it much worse ah. aishk. y flu?? n d irony is dat...we had temperatur taking in de morning. haha. oh apparently, my mum's thermometer not working so i faked a temperature...datz 4 lying...u fall sick...punishment...

so, moral of the story. dun lie.

n i shall get some rez n consider studying for SPA. aishk.

tpjc carnival cum open house

2006-04-23T14:58:00.000+08:00

tpjc carnival cum open house. success?

personally, i'm nt sure wat 2 say. de turnout din seem 2 b fantastic or anything of dat sort. i seemed 2 haf seen more tpjcians milling around than ppl from outside. which of coz is rather saddenning. esp aft all de hard work dat evryone had put in..yea...plus my frenz din even cum 2 gif their support...so much 4 their ok. only sharifah de bday gal came n she had 2 lose her camera. wat's wrong wif tpjc?

anw, i wd like 2 oso say sorry 2 evryone whom i snapped at yesterday or scolded or wateva lah. i realised now dat wen i get angry, moz of de time is i'm actually juz real angry at myself. n i relli regret wat i did at de carnival. i wished i had not been so wishy washy n stayed firm. i hate having regrets. n i keep on thinking n thinking abt it. plus i oso made shafirah angry.

basically. i came a lil late ah. supposed 2 report at 8.30 but i came at abt 9 instead. den, evrything went on fine till i realised dat i din haf enuff time 2 finish up de posters. idiot. den, some ppl started coming in n all. so, i was helping farhana xplain her xperiment n den i xplained mine. den wen varun was not at his coloured shadow booth, i oso tried xplaining wat i rmmbr from how varun xplained it. anyhow, at abt 10.30 sharifah came n i went out 2 meet her ah. managed 2 leave her wif khai so i went back 2 my booth 2 help farhana. den vanessa was like missing de whole time ah. i din c her. she claimed 2 haf done publicity 4 our booth at d end of de day-ironic sia. she was not at her booth at all.

so, den me n farhana stayed till abt lunchtime n i was like real hungry alredi...starting 2 get headache from breathing onli de lt air. so, went 2 de canteen beli mkn kejap. den came back 2 our booth. xplain xplain agn n wat not...den cant rmmbr wat time but farhana ajak me go out coz she say she cannot take it alredi. n i was penat ah n pissed off coz not evryone was doing their duty plus dere was one pt of time, many ppl were in de lt n making so much noise i couldnt xplain 2 my audience properly. i relli wonder wat ppl's impression of tpjc was. so freaking irritated at dem. oh n managed 2 find out how 2 work vanessa's experiment coz varun tried it out. so, i showed d audience dat as well coz i tot it was an experiment worth watching.

basically, i left the booth wif farhana. EVEN THO I WAS FEELING BAD. like farhana kept on saying she din care anymore coz she was pissed off but actually i wasnt 2 de point of not caring yet. i wanted my booth 2 b a success. i wanted 2 b at my booth at all times, so much as i want 2 visit other booths, i oso wanted ppl 2 come 2 my booths. n i relli, hate myself now 4 leaving de booth. coz me n farhana was out 4 very long. n wen we came back, a short while later we went out agn 2 buy food. den, bile balik, dah kene pack up n all n shafirah was super mad alredi. ice creams had 2 b given away. y? coz there was no one at all the booths bsides varun, 2 ask qns n 2 give out tokens. n i was freakingly mad at myself 4 leaving de booth. yes.

so...i dunno wattodo but tpjc open house did not leave a great feeling 2 me. coz wat i did was wrong. shafirah has all the right 2 b mad at me. even tho farhana was telling me dat actually shafirah was oso roaming abt. but my argument in me is. so wat? SO WAT IF OTHERS WENT OUT? i shd haf known my OWN RESPONSIBILITIES n stayed in the lt. no matter wat, i'm very much at fault. compared 2 de fun i had 2 a certain xtent, my regret is bigger. hence, overall...i dono wat 2 say abt d open hse. in my opinion i did a terrible job even tho i had de passion 2 man my booth properly. HAD the passion. amal doesnt know how 2 think 4 herself. wat an idiot.

shoot.... and into the hoop it goes...=)

2006-04-21T22:29:00.000+08:00

yay! amal scored a goal 4 basketball 2day!!! whee~ hahakz...even tho i dun like de sport...

ishk...i relli need 2 watch my eating seh...i've not been eating properly....=/

anw, yay! i'm happy 2day! hahakz....bsides ionic equilibria dat is..

yea, plus we had preparations 4 carnival tadi...gerek ah! tapi kecoh giler...hahakz...

n yea, i'm looking 4ward 2 working wif u...=) coz u're gonna get bullied or so i tink...

anw, hmms....we'll juz c how evrything goes 2moro....

i truly hope dat tpjc carnival will be a fun blast n an impact 2 all those who will b coming. yea. tpjc carnival rocks! i'm sooo excited!!! hahakz... but oops...i've not started on my posters yet....kla, shd start doing dem...tata!

i'm loved by many...

2006-04-11T20:36:00.000+08:00

yea, de day i had no time 2 update had 2 b my birthday. heh.

anw, many, many thanx 2 ALL my frenz who made me very, very happy yesterday. honestly, i juz felt dat de thank-yous i said were juz not enuff. seriously, my 1st bday sed dpt presents banyak jugak ah...plus u ppl splurge money on those presents, plus twas not celebrated as in adekan bday party so ppl wd feel compelled 2 buy presents kan? i relli wasnt expecting much. so, cam, terkejut ah jugak. but nevertheless, i luv evryone's gifts. so, basically, another big thank-you from me 2 all.

hmms....lagi ape i nak ckp eh? tadi cam byk gitu.

oh ya, i tink jc life has been a thoroughly wonderful experience. n i feel dat frenships made at dis time is like very kukuh. sumhow. u know... anw, i relli feel loved by my frenz. u know, i used 2 b real insecure abt frenships n all...but now, i relli do feel treasured. so, yea, thank u my dear frenz...=)

kla, i cant tink of wat more i wanted 2 say. serious tak ingat. so....tata dulu! nitez!

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