I'm writing an entry here despite having a new blog...reason, what I wish to say should be in my past and stay there. I wish I could let go of my past easily but somehow it's still clinging onto me.

I dreamt that you came to my house. You were with ur good friend, H. I remember thinking that he came over despite just getting married. It was probably a raya open house event or something coz there were lotsa ppl. You came and wanted to talk to me but I didnt treat u well at all. I told u I had nothing to talk about with u. So, u tried talking to me with my back facing u. Not sure if u knew I was starting to well up in tears. but I really didn't see a point to give u hope to something I'm not sure would carry on. And then more people came, a group of people from TPJC. And when I was just about to properly talk to u, to bring u away from everyone and talk, my dad saw u and told my mum that u came. So, I left u to my dad and hung out with my TPJC friends, avoiding u...End of dream.

Anw, saw ur photo at H's wedding. U look good with ur hair short. May u lead a fulfilling life, insya-Allah. I can only pray for u. Farewell..

Assalamualaikum!

Hey whoever who is still reading my blog! haha...i tink no one bothers alredi...but anw, if u r reading dis, den u r here...n so, to let u knw dat I've set up a new blog in light of de new year...to start afresh..insya-Allah...

So, let me welcome u to my new blog!

Slamatz...

this is wat u get 4 not checking ur blog anymore...haix..din even realised dat my blog is condemned n no one could read it...ohwells...

Anw, im timking of moving 2 a new blog...ingin membuka lembaran baru..but i still want dis blog to be readable coz it contains many of my memories...things dat i still wana hold on too..hence, de new layout...but anw, im still trying 2 get a suitable layout 4 my new blog..cant seem to find any...

kla, once my new blog is ready, i'll announce it..=)

hahaha....i spent de whole morning in de kitchen! is dat cool or wat?

2day, my parents' anniversary...so, i juz tot of doing a lil sumting 4 dem...so, pagi2 lagi da mandi, n siap...den i went shop 4 de ingredients dat i need...actually, i din relli cook..heh...i made sandwich with cheese filling n tomatoes n cucumbers...oh, ya, n i tried 2 arrange it into a heart...yummy yummy! my mum finished her platealmoz immediately! n she say she felt like she ate at a restaurant! sweet rite? heh..sh sed, de taste of my sandwich reminded her of de sandwich dat my aunt used 2 blanje her (weneva my aunt got her gaji) at some coffeehouse...yea...

den, after dat, i made supreme baked potatoes...gosh...i wish i bought more potatoes! well, i tot i could use de ones at home...bought onli 4 in case of aniting...yea, n apparently, de potatoes at hme semue dah tak leh pakai...so, had 2 make do with de 4 dat i bought...n it totally turned out well! yummy yummy! wished i put in more cheese though..

anw, wateva itis, it totally is an achievement 4 me coz i dun like 2 cook. dis is at least a gd step..i totally did evryting on my own! hooray 4 recipe bks! haha...

sepi...
tanpamu di sisi...
terasa kekosongan di hati...

first movie of the year=dragonball evolution

sadly, i wasnt even intrested 2 watch it..heh...but twas ok...

hmm...exams r suddenly here again...time passes by like a whirlwind...n i've been such a lazybum dis yr...din even bother 2 update my blog..

oh wells...anw, 2day haf klaz ngaji by ustaz batisah, taufik batisah's dad..woo hoo~ haha..de 2nd claz of de yr..n we found out laz wk dat taufik's in england..*shrugz*

ok, anw, i gtg print notes now..toodles!

my feet hurt...i tink it's from too much walking plus bad shoes...

anw, while i was walking back juz nw...i was tinking of how nice it's like if reality was like a novel or movies...wen de girl's feet r hurt, de prince charmin/boyfren will carry her back to the house...

n den, wen i tried to put dat into reality...i juz cudnt imagine sumting liddat relli happening...

ohwells...

fantasizing juz dun get u anywer...

*wails* MY RESULTS IS SUPER RABAK!!!! much, much worse than laz yr sem 1 even...n DAT was alredi BAD ENOUGH!!! AAAARRRGGGHHH!!!

ok, im sori...i juz need 2 SCREAM!!!

haix....i brought it upon myself i know...i juz cant blif it cud b dat bad...

ok...calm down....byee..

holidays....woohoo~

anw...im super stressed! y, y, y does evryone like 2 organise chalets? its like i wanna b part of it but de timings r like always in d evening n i dun tink i can make it in d evenings lah!!! den, i oso haf 2 like pick n choose coz i dun tink my parents will allow me 2 go 4 all...

gosh i was so happy wen 4 bsc chalet, we had 2 meet up at 2.30 pm...so, at least i dun haf any probz...i knw i can go awhile...tapi....org lain semue nak dtg mlm so, time i cum, twas onli like 4 other ppl...boo~ doesnt help dat skarg musim sakit n org pergi holidays....

now, i juz received a msg frm iskandar inviting me 2 chalet n it's dis sat but it starts at 5pm...so, so, so, like wat time 2 do i leave? sebelum maghrib? lepas maghrib? gosh...it juz defeats de purpose of gg if i stay 4 dat short period but at least i still go kan? but still cam go all de way 2 pasir ris juz 4 2 hrs? n doesnt mean evryone will cum at dat time pun...dahlah nak solat pun nanti leceh kan?

argh...shd i go? onot?

haish...hmms...

i tink i juz figured out how 2 do a 10 mark question. i blew a 10 mark question!!! argh!!! im pissed...n sad...

haix............

physical chem paper tmr morning...toodles...

exams r coming...wat's new?

argh! i've wasted de 3 day wkend!!! datz bad lah...haix...i was supposed 2 clear all my work i ended up finishing none...great...dat means dat i muz slp late 2nite, wake up early 2moro n slp late 2moro...clever me.

where did all my time management skills go to??

=/

amal is not happy. haix..

wowee~ no sch 2day! haha...juz 4 dis wk..de module starts nxt wk..supposed 2 haf 2 hrs of lesson on wed...

anw, i survived my 1st day of sch ystd!!! not onli dat, i survived 7 hours of lessons ystd!! ohh...if u rd my previous entry n gotta knw abt my 6 hours straight of lessons, well, sumhow, one of my modules was nt being reflected on my timetable..so, i found out on mon nite dat i haf 8 freaking hours straight of lessons on tuesdays! yepz...wif no break...n im wondering how 2 eat lunch n do my zuhur prayers...10.30a.m. to 6.30p.m worth of lessons...bt, yea, yesterday, one of my tutorials haven start yet so, datz y de 7 hrs...but frm nxt wk onwards...it's gonna b a crazy 4 hours of chem n 4 hours of maths....6 hours being lectures n 2 hours of tutorials...my head will b swimming man...

sch aside, i had a weird dream....dreamt sumting along the lines of a giant alligator n i repeat a GIANT one...it's ttotally huge like a swish of its tail can knock down parts of a building...i dunno wat it was doing lah but some bad guys apparently wanted 2 feed it n tried 2 hold ppl hostages juz 2 feed dis alligator...it was relli psycho coz dey were getting pleasure frm feeding us! n moz of us were still young kids ah...i relli cudnt stand it but i was helpless...i mean i juz cant imagine being fed 2 d alligator...sum of dem were shot first b4 being fed n i was hoping i wd b one of those who gets shot so dat i wun relli feel being eaten up u knw...but yea, twas relli scary lah...u hear dem screaming n im like juz one of dem waiting 4 my turn...luckily it neva came...i mean i woke up...so, yea, thankful 4 dat...

im still wondering wat triggered dat dream...so odd...i wasnt tinking of any alligators definitely or din even watch anything recently abt dem...or even read abt dem...

oh wells...who knws?

hello world! it's been quite some time....i've gottn my timetable n i'll b having a 3-day wkend! yay!...tho im nt sure if i prefer my laz sem timetable wen my free day was right smack in de middle of de wk...on wed...which is a nice break frm sch wen it gets too stressful...but ohwells, i've 2 survive aft all..so, my timetable will do..=)

downside is, i haf 6 hours straight of lessons on tuesday n 5 hours straight of lessons on thurs...blegh...n summore de tuesday..it's such bad timing...12.30 to 6.30! it's quite leceh lah...dahlah means i'll b hungry...since lunch will haf 2 b an early lunch if i eat at home...den, hafta miss zuhur unless i get released early frm chem n rush 2 solat or sumting...dat, we'll c how...n den, asar oso hafta kejar...moz likely, hafta maghrib in sch as well...so, means i'll b back late...at nite..alah...den, time puasa oso muz buke in sch...veri rushing lah tuesday...

thursday, i dun mind so much coz it's 8.30 to 1.30...pagi, is quite orait..but tues...i tink i mite slp in classes....k, hope not...

den my wed n fri only 2 hours of lessons each..=) nt so bad lah...juz dat my long days r relli long days...wif no breaks in btween summore...

hmms...oh ya, i din say y my wkend is 3 days instead of 2 days eh? well, it's bcoz...im nt in sch nw...i mean my mondays r free! yay! haha...no monday blues...=)

so, yea, anw, on sat, i went 2 one of my relatives' engagement ceremony...den time de wakil sebut de name...dat was a veri classic moment...he kept on saying de wrong name over n over...n de worst part was, dat was de twin sista's name! yepz...so, finally he managed 2 get it rite...kinda funny...but dat aside, de food was nice!! haha...n i met syida....was kinda surprised...so, we're actually related without knowing it...but yea, wish i was as peramah as her...she warms up so easily wif my parents n grand parents...im like veri quiet...hmms...i juz dunno how 2 talk 2 adults...datz weird~ im an adult nw...k, i dunno how 2 speak 2 d elders...esp ppl dat ive never met b4...i mean i can speak better 2 my aunts n all...but yea, juz nt evryone...

n im gonna b a teacher...i relli need 2 work on it..if nt, hw will i talk 2 teachers frm other schs, principals, parents, n whoever else i need 2 work with in de course of planning events n all...whoosh~ tinking of being a full-time teacher makes me tired...scared,,,but excited too...

wokae...enuff talk...i've gtg siap...gg out in awhile..=)

finally...a long entry..heh..bye! ( i feel more myself nw)

i miss myself....

y izit dat as we grow up, we haf to lose innocence? i relli miss my inncocence...n once u lose it, dere's no getting it back...

haix....

heyheyhey....im gg 4 camp 2moro...gonna miss my laptop...it has been my faithful fren evryday....siince de holz started esp....n now...gg 2 2 camps...im gonna b leaving home 4 6 days...im so tempted 2 bring it along but it's juz nt practical...i haf 2 bring ennuff clothes 4 6 days 5 nites plus 2 days of wet games, 2 sets of costumes 4 being stationmasters, n dat, i tink, is alredi a lot...cant possibly lug around a laptop dat is gonna b weighing so much. oh wells...

kla, my mum da panggil mkn ni....tata 4 nw!

wow...i cant blif i've not typed a single entry since like b4 exams? like wow? hmm..i tink i alredi sed wow..heh..still...

anw, irah is going off 2 france in abt 7 more hours! im so jealous! it's been my dream destination since sec 1 wen i took up french as third language...haix...but im happy 4 her..n she sed she'll email me abt her experience while shez dere...*sighs* at times like dis, i relli wish i was in nus fass...i wd probably at least haf had a chance...budden agn...i juz cant imagine myself in arts stream...guess im not one who likes new things...im juz afraid 2 try out new stuff..oh wells...im juz destined 2 b a teacher lah...in de sci stream...

hmms...time flies so fast...i did enjoy de freedom of not gg 2 sch...but it's gona b back 2 work as mendaki tutor nxt wk...so now, gotta catch up wif lesson plans n wkshts n all...i relli haf 2 buck up now...gotta catch my discipline back...was tinking of getting some revision of laz yr's maths topics coz dere's de extension of de first sem's modules nxt sem...

now im stressed....but not so yet...coz aft all...it's still vacation? haha...im soo i dono wat..heh...

anw, 30th june's de day im gg 2 evergreen pri 2 observe classes...im more excited 4 my 2nd wk at wdlnds sec tho...guess coz im gona b a sec sch teacher n i relli wana knw how d environment, students n all r like? n plus i haf some students frm fuchun pri dat went 2 wdlnds sec so, dat'll make my stay more intresting, knowing some ppl dere...but de teacher in charge has still not called 2 schedule for an induction...will dere b one?

anw, was so hoping for a cousin's outing dis holz...guess now, wif evryone having diff schedules, it's relli difficult...now, abg muhd's in bali, aqilah's in indonesia, irah's gg 2 france...wowee...where am i? home...=(

i wana go shop...but at de same time..i dont...im crazy...

argh!

k, nvm...i am crazy...

so, anw, 've been keeping myself bz wif an addiction...which ppl mite find childish? gosh im twenty n still playing..umms neopets? heh...i juz like it...i dont knw...but ya lah..it's kind of a waste of time wen i can do other things...but...*shrugz*

hmms...kla, i tink i'll sign off 4 d moment...take care evryone!

WHAT MAJOR IS RIGHT FOR YOU? created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as French/Spanish/OtherLanguage You should strongly consider majoring (or minoring) in a foreign language, especially French or Spanish as they have a greater use in today's world. But other languages could be useful to you as well, such as Chinese, Japanese, German, Italian, or many others. With a major in a foreign language you could teach, or work for a company as a translator or foreign correspondant. It is possible that the best major for you is your 2nd, 3rd, or even 5th listed category, so be sure to consider ALL majors in your OTHER high scoring categories (below). You may score high in a category you didnt think you would--it is possible that a great major for you is something you once dismissed as not for you. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it. Consider adding a minor or double majoring to make yourself standout and to combine your interests. A minor in a foriegn language is useful for ANY major. Also, business or political science are great minors for a foreign language major. Please post your results in your myspace/blog/journal. Accounting/Finance/Marketing 69% Education/Counseling 69% Psychology/Sociology 69% French/Spanish/OtherLanguage 69% Mathematics/Statistics 63% English/Journalism/Comm 56% Religion/Theology 56% Biology/Chemistry/Geology 56% HR/BusinessManagement 50% History/Anthropology/LiberalArts 44% Nursing/AthleticTraining/Health 44% Visual&PerformingArts 44% PoliticalScience/Philosophy 25% Physics/Engineering/Computer 13% Stumbled upon dis quiz, so I juz decided to try it out. It's amazing how the results are real accurate. as u can c, i haf my first four majors tied in first place at a not so high percentage of 69..it makes sense coz i din relli haf my mind set on a particular major or even haf an area of expertise in a particular field. n yea, i'm real intrested 2 learn languages esp french coz i onli did 3rd language french up to sec 3..kinda wasted...den, accounting, education n psychology were my considerations. so, de quiz is rather apt. i like. =) n yea, i am in education after all now. anw, my thoughts of the day: i am a contented gal 2day. i can finally sleep peacefully!!! my als research paper is finally over! my ict project is finally over! now, i juz need 2 study 4 my laz maths tez, als tez, finish off finite maths assignment (it's another one, different from de one i mentioned in previous post), 2 lab reports...n yea, de semester wd b over...of coz, i din include exams juz yet...muz take things one at a time..rite? ok, i tink i shd get 2 work real soon...i've procastinated enuff...haf some bks 2 mark n lesson plans 2 b done...dis is not related 2 sch tho..haix...but it's important coz it involves real students...

im worried 4 dem...kla, nitez!

like who hasnt heard abt it? evryone's all stress...juz got back from reading khai's post...n yea...i wanna list down my assignments too..heh...kepo...but nvm..khai wun mind, rite? =) n so de list is as follows:

Organic Chem Test-Monday
Finite Maths Assignment-Tuesday
SCLP/ICT + Summary Report-Thursday
Main Group Chem Test- Thursday
ALS Research Paper-Friday
ALS Test
Organic Chem Lab Report

Yea, it's all assignments and revisions...haix..oh wells...n yea, im soooo looking 4ward 2 3 months holz...it's relli like kinda a reward aft working so hard...=) yay! n khai, we muz catch up k? havent been talking 2 u dis sem...as a matter of fact...i need a friends gathering...2 remind me i still haf frenz...k, dat sounds silly...make me sound like i dun haf frenz...but relli...all my close frenz..so far away..haix..luv y'all...muz go out some day k?

juz now my youngest sis asked an interesting qn...

sis: mama, semut boleh ade kat atas cloud tak?
bro: mane boleh..semut tak boleh breathe lah gitu.
mum: lagipun semut mane boleh panjat sampai cloud. macam mane semut nak naik atas situ?
sis: semut boleh naik hot air balloon ape..

i thought my sister's comment on de hot air balloon was like so cute n funny...aishk...children n their thoughts...dey r adroable rite?

i was so slenge tau yesterday. i went 2 de driving centre in de morning. tot i was late. so i rushed dere n reached dere at 8.10a.m. so, went 2 scan my bbdc card n i was like...ok...wat's wrong? y izit not printing? im alredi late! so, went 2 ask 4 help...n de person on duty suggested dat i probably dun haf a lesson at 8 a.m. so, i went 2 check. n yes. de person was rite. my practical was scheduled 4 2.10p.m. so, i travelled all de way 2 bbd 4 nothing. yupz. gr8 story eh? =)

n i gtg do my maths assignment. bye2!

i feel as if we're strangers...

exams r over.

i juz dun feel like studying...n i haf 2 papers 2moro..both not covered...am i screwed or wat?

haix...i shd study but i juz cant!

excuses, excuses...

my 1st paper...over...but i din relli feel gd abt it...so, yea...honestly...im juz tinking abt 2moro...if 2day is bad, de paper dat im moz prepared for, wat abt 2moro...de subject im worst at..haix...y didnt i start studying at least a month b4?

hello ppl...i haf some BIG news..which is why im updating..hmms....i tink im relli veri careless lah...knw wat happened? my hp got stolen right in front of my eyes....right in front of my closed eyes...i was aslp. my hp was on de table, right beside my head n i was facing de hp....im juz so shocked dat de thief dared 2 take de hp....imagine if i had woken up! but de point is i didnt...dunno y i was so tired. so amal 0 thief 1. so, yea...

anw, i blocked my hp number alredi...anyone who wants 2 contact me can email or contact me at home lah...so sori trouble evryone...

ohh...n im still shocked...it occured in sch..haix...oh wells...

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school drains my energy away like crazy...eargh! i wanna sleep...

n dat reminds me dat ive nt checked my exam timetable...im outta here...

i did not haf enough rest. raggh

wheee~ hello! im in sch wif my laptop 4 de 1st time! hahakz...jakon gitu eh? yea, juz configured my laptop jadi bolehlah pakai kat skola...tapi nak bawak seksa seh...berat! but still im like free frrom nw till 3 pm...at least berguna kan? i wdnt wanna study all de way..can go bonkers...actually wun lah..so, actually nt gd ah ade laptop..i distracted easily...hmm...

hancurlah azamku utk menjadi seorang yang berdisiplin...cabarannya meningkat! haha...i so drama lah...esp since i came here seh..dono y...suddenly i smangat artistic...kinda weird...but fun! anw, i muz not shatter my azam...i better not lah...if not...hmm...i oso donno..juz means i wun graduate well...n datz BAD...

kla, enough nonsensical talking...tata...

n im smsing u at de same time...=)

i know im not IT savvy lah...anita pointed dat out 2 me in educational psychology lesson juz nw...tsktsk...anw, exploring my laptop is fun! haha...n boon hui had 2 say dat acer is not good...easily spoilt...*covers ears* im not listening to him. i tink my laptop is worth the money n i luv it. yes...no matter wat...it beats having a comp lah..tho i still need my pc 2 print notes...troublesome rite if want 2 pluck in n out de printer to de pc n laptop weneva i need it..so, yea...i dun mind..

anw, is asked if i wanna join him n yunus 4 handball..haha...cool eh? i had d intention of joining but i keep on 4getting 2 ask ppl around me simply coz im too bz now lah...sad eh? my mind's in a real mess i tell u...supposed 2 study 4 calculus now actually...2moro ade ujian...hmm...n juz now pun ah actually...i tink i flunk physical chem tez badly lah...haix...so much 4 im gonna do well in uni. grrtz...so irritating....

n ok..i shall go study...nitez..

gosh...wen will de crazy wks end? another crazy wk dis wk n i've not even studied 4 my 2 upcoming tests!!! argh!!! n guess wat? so demoralizing lah...i got c+ for general chem...dangz...first tez da mcm tu n i tot i did fine...grrtz...n my teacher moderated summore...argh!!! trouble rite?

kla...anw, i dono y im still awake...k, actually coz i was testing my speech recognition thing in my laptop.. cool rite? hmm..not relli oso lah...coz de comp asik misunderstand me...sedih eh? haha..c lah...how 2 pass my test...supposed 2 study but use laptop functions...tsk...wen will i change? kate aje feel like a better student...oh wells...kla, gtg now...tata...

i feel so neglected..
im lacking of sumone's attention..
haix...
why is life like dis?

wokae...guess wat? i decided to switch on my laptop for the sole purpose of playing mahjong titans...it's a game...so...i smangatly played...wen i realised dat im actually connected to the internet!!! ok..ive been trying like mad 2 get an intetnet connection from my hse n ive decided 2 gif up n now...voila! haha...yea..i relli shd configure my wireless settings soon...but i dun like 2 talk 2 strangers lah...aqilah advised me 2 call up singnet n ask for their help to configure the wireless thingy at my pc...sighs...de trouble juz 4 dis laptop...

k, im not exactly into cool gadgets lah...so, i dun understand ppl's fascintaion of getting a technology...like example...some of my frenz get so fascinated wen dey c my hp which is touch screen..hmms..n im like indifferent to it..n ya, im happy 2 get my laptop but i wdnt say it's a dream come true or aniting..u knw wat i mean? oh ya, n sumone gave me an mp3 n i hardly use it...=/ sori...not dat i dun appreciate de gift...it's juz not very me 2 listen to songs n all...

i honestly think im gonna b de most backdated teacher wen ive graduated. i wonder hw im gonna keep up wif de students...oh wells...

anw, to u darling...i luv u...=)

i say aaargh!!! honestly...looking at wat i haf 2 do esp de readings dat i haf 2 rd up...i feel like going crazy...u know dat pressurised feeling...dat stressful feeling...sighs...honestly...i know i shd break de work up but achieving little by little juz wun make me feel like i achieved aniting...n de list wd juz grow...hmm...but i relli shd do sumting instead of procrastinating. but oh goodness...i need help.

i can i can i can.

i shd juz go do sumting now. period. tata.

The Real You

Here is the analysis:

1. You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
2. You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
3. You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
4. Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.
5. Your boyfriend thinks that you are a real doll but this is not a totally positive thing. Sometimes you can be a bit too sweet, and come across as being helpless. If you're like this too frequently, your boyfriend and other people are likely to get tired of you having to rely on them all the time.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test81.aspx

Is dat relli me?